Torn up. ~Flamingeos Fanfiction

Chapter 151

It was the next day.

Geo, Jack, Isla and I were finally in England. We were all staying in Jack's apartment, although I doubt Geo and I will be staying there for long, Jack has made it very clear to us that he wants us finding a hotel to stay in as soon as possible when we have enough money, which I can understand, he doesn't owe us any favours. And anyway, it'll be nice for myself and Geo to have some privacy. He's been hinting that he wants us both to have "alone time" together, and I can only imagine what that entails.

As cheesy as this may sound, Geo means everything to me. We've been dating for just over three years now and I simply seem to be falling in love with him more and more each day. It's fair to say that he's the one.

But I'm seventeen... I feel too young to lose my virginity. I know that it's normal to lose it at this age, but I just don't feel ready, I still see myself as a stupid fourteen year old who doesn't know what she's doing with her life. 

Geo's even hinted about kids to me, which is just out of the question. We can barely pay for a hotel room to stay in for a few months, nevermind a child. He's made it evident that his mum will help us out a lot... but the fact of having a child still scares me. That's someone's life Geo and I would be in charge of. I'd love to have a family with him... but I should probably wait a few more years for that.

Geo hugged my waist as we laid down on an uncomfortable sofa bed that smelt strangely musty.

"Morning princess." He whispered after a tired yawn escaped from my dry mouth, his soft lips touching my flushed cheek. 

My heart began to beat rapidly when I realized that today was the day I go to my high school since almost a year ago. So much happened when I last entered that school... Jack and I were kind of a thing, and I turned from being liked by pretty much everyone to being hated my every single student in my school. Although I'm sure I'll be fine with Geo by my side. He always finds a way to make me feel safe and secure, despite my anxiety which always tries its best to ruin my day.

"You okay?"

"Yeah." I lied, sitting up after letting out a stretch and rubbing my tired eyes. Geo sat up with me and I rested my head on his shoulder. "Excited?"

"Hell na." He chuckled, his hand running down strands of my hair. It always makes my heart flutter, no matter how many times he does it. "But education is important I guess."

I softly chuckled and then got out to brush my teeth and wash my face. Isla was already in the bathroom. She was standing in front of her mirror as she attempted to squeeze a spot.

"You shouldn't do that." I told her as I grabbed my toothbrush and squeezed some toothpaste. "It makes it worse."

She playfully rolled her eyes but to my surprise stopped and then turned around so she was facing towards me. I haven't had a proper conversation with Isla for what seemed like years. 

"I heard Geo having the kid conversation with you." My heart instantly began racing as I waited for her to say something else. "You ready?"

"I haven't even... done it yet." I replied shyly, my eyes now focused on the floor. 

"Oh my god, you're joking!"

I let out a laugh and shook my head. Isla and I talking felt just like old time, there were no awkward silences and I didn't feel uncomfortable at all. I felt so grateful that she didn't hold a grudge against me, I knew that if I was in her situation I'd hate my guts. 

"You're doing it tonight Lucy." She grinned, her eyes wide in excitement as they stared deeply into mine. "No excuses."

I nodded, not bothering to protest. I was kind of excited anyway... Geo and I have been dating for so long, it seems weird that we haven't done it yet. I suppose my confidence is as low as it can get and Geo is too nice to pressurize me to do anything I don't feel comfortable doing, which I respect. 

And maybe... just maybe I'll think about having a child with him. 

I've noticed that I've been getting barely any votes for my stories lately. I hope the chapters aren't getting boring, I've been really enjoying writing them, I have a load of drafts which I am editing and I have a notebook which I've been writing ideas frequently. Unfortunately, I am unable to be active on wattpad because of the number of exams my school has been giving me lately, but I do try!! Please vote on the story if you've enjoyed it, it lets me know if my chapters are getting good or if I need to improve them. 

Also sorry this was short! It's almost midnight and I have to wake up at 6am for school tomorrow xD