Torn up. ~Flamingeos Fanfiction

Chapter 154

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At least forty minutes had past and I was still in pain as I avoided eye contact with my rapist who laid in front of me. Geo had knocked at one point, asking to sort things out with me. I went to reply but had quickly stopped myself when a knife appeared in front of my neck. Dylan threatened to slit it if I told him I'd talk. So I simply demanded Geo to leave me alone as I felt my eyes well up with tears. 

He could have saved me. He could have protested and come inside. My heart dropped when I heard him let out a sigh, and then walk away. 

Dylan looked delighted. His eyes wouldn't leave mine as his hands trailed across my body. At some points, I squeezed my eyes shut and tried to imagine Dylan as Geo. It worked the first time, but I'd quickly realise that I was being stupid. Geo was gentle with me and cared about my feelings. He stopped when he realised I wasn't feeling it and wanted to listen to my problems. But I was too embarrassed, so used school as an excuse. 

Whereas with Dylan... he couldn't care less about how I'm feeling or if he's hurting me. 

After another forty minutes or so past and he was finished. He quickly put on his trousers as I quickly put on my pyjama ones, feeling my cheeks turn a scarlet red. His eyes then met mine and I felt my entire body shrink when his head slowly went closer. His nose eventually touched mine, causing me to feel faint with fear. 

"You're mine now." He hissed, his eyes completely fixed on me. "You'll never be Geo's and he'll never be yours." He then let out a chuckle when I nodded. "I'm your boyfriend now, baby." 

He kissed my forehead before slowly leaving the room. The second his haunting figure was out of sight I collapsed onto the sofa my trembling body sat on and exploded into tears. I felt dirty, every part of my body had been touched and looked at by a guy who I detest. My relationship with the only boy I will ever love is now over, and I'm now in a new one with a guy who I can't even get myself to look at. 

Soon enough I found myself hyperventilating as I cried hysterically. Maybe everything would have been better if I allowed Dylan to kill me. If I simply went: "Go on then. I dare you". 

A knock caused my heart to stop as I stared at the door in fear. I couldn't bring myself to speak. All I could think of was if Dylan was back and wanted more.

To my luck, Geo walked in. His face dropped when our eyes met, and he ran up to me, squeezing my sweaty hands. 

"Lucy!" He gasped, his hands now cupping my cheeks as he gazed into my eyes. "Lucy look at me."

I couldn't. I couldn't look at the boy I love knowing that he's not mine. 

"Lucy, what's happened?"

"I love someone else." 

Geo instantly let go of me, his troubled eyes scanning mine as he tried to find a way to get me to look at him. 

"No you don't princess..." He whispered, holding my hands again and shuffling closer to me. "I know you love me."

"Get off me." I whispered, tears welling up in my eyes as I slowly shuffled backwards. I felt too weak to get him to go away, but also desperately wanted him to stay. "I love someone else."

"What is going on baby?" He clearly wasn't taking me seriously, or just didn't want to believe this was true. He shuffled closer again and put his hand on top of mine. This time I looked at him and felt my heart shatter when I could properly see how distressed his expression was. But I had to do this, our lives were in danger and could easily end if I allowed myself to carry on falling in love with him. 

"I... I love Dylan." Tears streamed down my cheeks again when Geo let go of me. He looked furious and I didn't blame him. 

He opened his mouth to say something but then stopped himself. He clearly believed that what I said was true, and I desperately tried thinking of ideas to inform him that I was being forced to end our relationship without actually verbally telling him, but nothing came up. 

"I fucking knew it..."

He was now standing up, towering over me whilst his face burned red. He pushed a table standing beside him, causing it to fall over whilst a glass vase smashed to pieces. He stared at me in fury and went to yell. I prepared myself to flinch, but to my surprise heard a softer tone. 

"Never talk to me again."

Before I knew it he was out of sight. He had taken everything with him, his clothes, phone, wash bag. 

He was leaving me. 

One of my favourite (if not my favourite) chapters I've published. I actually felt super emotional when writing it. 

Whenever I'm writing chapters I listen to studio Ghibli music and it gives me so much motivation and ideas! The song I put above is one that really stood out to me when I was writing this chapter, so I decided to put it above. I feel like it fits really well with the mood I'm trying to put across.