Torn up. ~Flamingeos Fanfiction

Chapter 73

"Damn.." Jack gasped when we were done. His hair was all ruffled and his cheeks were rosy. "You're a good kisser."

"Jack!" I hissed, trying my best to not slap him. "What about Isla!?"

"She's cheated on me before." Jack's bright eyes turned to sadness and something told me that he only kissed me to distract himself from her. "And anyway, I think I'm falling for you."

"No you're not." I stood up and went to walk back home but Jack grabbed my wrist. I turned around and then let out a sigh of annoyance. "What the hell Jack? And anyway, we've only known each other for a few hours! You're not falling for me, trust me. Think about how beautiful Isla is!"

"But there's something different about you." Jack was biting his lip now, something Geo does all the time. "You don't realise how good looking you truly are do you?"

"I love Geo." I snapped, ignoring his pathetic question. If he thinks that I'm going to start liking him after receiving some compliments then he should really think again. "So you better start getting over me quickly."

Jack let out a chuckle. "I'll try." He smiled. For some reason, him saying "he'll try" upset me. Does this mean that I don't want him to get over me? I don't even know.. "But I can't promise anything."

I opened my mouth to let out another feisty comment but then closed it. Instead, I stormed home. Jack didn't follow me this time. But when I went to turn a corner, I could see from the corner of my eye Jack standing there will a big grin on his face. He looked happy. I made him happy. Maybe Jack would be a good distraction from Geo? 

For some reason I don't feel guilty about cheating on Geo anymore. I feel as though I deserve someone like Jack. Someone who makes me feel more special than Geo did. I found myself grinning too when the thought of Jack popped up in my mind.

But wait.. Isla.

I can't betray her like that. She's too kind. She deserves way more than I do.

No. I can't date Jack. No way, even if Isla and Jack broke up it would still be mean of me to do so. Imagine if I caught Isla kissing Geo.. just the thought of that happening broke my heart. 

I mean I do love Geo. Why else would I cry my eyes out over him? But to be honest knowing him he'll fall in love with a different girl in prison. Once a cheater always a cheater. 

But I probably don't even like Jack. I bet I'll look at him tomorrow and think "why on earth did I kiss him?"

More like why on earth did he kiss me..

"No." I hissed to myself, clenching my fists. "I can't hurt Geo and Isla. It isn't worth it."

But I started to miss Jack. I wanted to see him again. To act all difficult and watch him try and win me over.

Then the thought of Geo replacing me with a different girl from prison occurred in my mind again. It made me want to cry, of course Geo's going to replace me. How can I expect him to love me for an entire year when he only sees me like twenty minutes per day. 

Suddenly I began wondering whether moving to America is even worth it. My mum needs me and I have friends in here anyway. So there wouldn't be any point.

No. I have to move to America. I need to see Geo..