Torn up. ~Flamingeos Fanfiction

Chapter 147

I could barely open my eyes when I woke up, an intense light shone into them as though it was attempting to blind me, and my head hurt dreadfully. I heard loud breathing near me, and just about managed to crane my neck to see Geo sleeping beside me, wearing my oversized grey jumper.

What happened last night? How come all I can remember is hugging Geo as we talked about him deciding to not move to LA? 

I sat up and looked in the mirror which was to the left of my bed. My head hurt more than ever now, and I was incredibly thirsty. Not only that, but I looked a mess. At this point it was pretty obvious about what happened, I've defiantly had this feeling before. But where did the alcohol come from? How did I get so... drunk?

"Geo." I hissed, pushing him with my hand. He eventually woke up, and then groaned in what seemed like pain. He must have been wasted too. After about a minute of stretching, yawning, and rubbing his head whilst frowning, he sat up. He looked a mess, but in all honestly it wasn't that bad. 

"Damn Lucy..." He whispered as his eyes stared at the blanket. He looked barely awake, the bags under his eyes were dark and his eyes itself were bloodshot. "You showed me a different side of you last night."

"W-what?" I stammered, bewildered. "What the hell happened last night Geo?" 

Suddenly, Geo's tired face turned into a face which showed someone wide awake in panic. "Oh shit..." he gasped, "you got that drunk?" 

"How drunk was I?" 

It was pretty obvious that at this point Geo was trying his very best to not laugh. He looked cute, and his eyes shone with happiness. But I knew I looked the completely opposite, a complete mess with angry, tired eyes. 

"And how the HELL did I manage to drink alcohol? Where did that come from?"

"Calm down baby." My boyfriend whispered. He cuddled up close to me and then stared into my eyes. I looked back at him, but felt insecure whilst doing so as I knew I looked ugly. "Look... you were panicking and crying and looked close to passing out. I had no clue what to do, whenever I get like that I drink... so I thought why not?"

I wanted to kiss him at this point, and to lay my head on his chest whilst feeling his warm fingers go up and down my arm. But I knew that I should be angry at him right now. 

"Ariel died." I spat, "how could you get me drunk on the day of my best friends death?" Although him getting me drunk was to help me, I still felt upset that he made me do something like that. He knows I would never even have a glass of wine, never mind enough to make me forget about everything that happened last night. "What did I do?"

"You just talked a lot." Geo stared into my eyes deeply whilst clearly trying to not laugh. I could see his grin trying to stretch out across his face, and I tried to make mine not do the same. "You told me about England... about Jack, Dylan."

Panic rose inside of me when he said the name "Dylan". I know that Geo knows who he is, but I also know that Geo doesn't know how he feels about me. I was about to ask him about what I said about Dylan, even though I didn't want to know at the same time. But I didn't need to. "Yeah... I don't like that Dylan..." Geo was now frowning and his eyes left mine. "I'm just glad you didn't do anything with him whilst I was out of your way."

"Geo!" I gasped, going in to hug him. "I could never even look at Dylan that way."

Geo let out a sigh now. "I knew that you and Jack were a thing when I was in jail... but damn, he does mean a lot to you doesn't he?"

"Not anymore." I lied. I then turned Geo's face towards mine, and gave him a quick kiss on his lips. "Not when I can call you mine."

After a while of Geo attempting to be annoyed with me, he gave in and went to kiss me, a small smile appearing on his face. 

It felt good to kiss someone who I know will always protect and take care of me. But I couldn't help but feel guilt rise inside of me when I thought of Jack and the multiple times I've betrayed Geo. Yes, Geo and I weren't together when I was with Jack. But how could I get rid of Geo so quickly? 

Suddenly, kissing Geo felt wrong. Even though I knew it was untrue, I felt as though I was using him. As though he was someone who'd help me forget about those who I've once fallen in love with the way I have with Geo. My breathing began to quicken, and I felt beads of sweat begin to form on my forehead. Before Geo could see me panic even more, I told him I needed to use the toilet and walked away as quickly but calmly as I could. 

I have some explaining to do! I don't know if I am going to be able to carry on this story for a while, I had really bad grades last year and I am literally spending all my time revising. Tbh I should be revising now... but yeah, hope you guys understand. Gcse's and all ):