Everyone says that love hurts, but that's not true.
Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Loosing someone hurts.
Everyone confuses these things with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us...
It was night time and me, Loren, Zach and Mark were sitting together in a bed, all crammed in. Geo was going to join us but decided to talk to Tyler instead. I knew that it was about me, which is why I didn't join. I don't want anymore drama in my life anymore though I know that that is never going to happen.
It was slightly awkward, and at one point of the conversation where they talked about parents I pretended that I needed to go to the toilet, when really I just walked off to somewhere private where I could cry. Loren caught me, and decided to sit beside me.
"I was like you when I first joined this tour." She began as we stared through the window. Loren was sitting down and hugging her knees, whereas I was sitting down with my knees up, resting my elbow on a part of the window shelf. "Missing home sucks, right?"
I sighed and nodded, although I couldn't care less about home. I was just worried about my parents finding me.
"Geo really really likes you doesn't he?"
I stared at her in shock, surprised by her sudden question. I then stared at her for a while in sympathy while she stared through the window with her eyes full of tears.
"Yes." I answered, my eyes still fixed onto her saddened face.
I then turned my gaze back to the window. "Loren, sometimes you have to accept things like this in life." I added. I know I was acting harsh but someone had to tell her.
"You don't understand!" She yelled. I jumped and stared at her in confusion. She stared at me for a while, her body tense and her eyes full of anger. But after a few seconds she softened and stared back at the window.
"I'm sorry." She whispered, tears streaming down her eyes now. "It's just.. the fact that if Geo never met you, if he just didn't go to the shops the same day you went with Sasha.. I would have had a chance. And that kills me."
My sympathy for her completely left now. Instead I felt angry. "You're the one who doesn't understand!" I snapped, clenching my fists and facing her. "If I never met Geo I would have been depressed, suicidal even! I was in such a dark place and he helped me get through it!"
Loren burst into tears and covered her face with her hands. But I had more to say.
"Yeah, you like him. But if you never met him you would have been fine. So stop being selfish."
I went to walk away but Loren grabbed my hand and pulled me down so I'd fall back into the sofa.
"He's liked me for years. It felt so good.. I was in a dark place myself, dealing with all the hate on social media. Yeah, I had friends. But I didn't feel like I fitted in with them. Geo made me forget about them, he made me feel special for once. If it wasn't for him i'd be the same, depressed and suicidal. And now.. not gonna lie, I feel like I'm heading that direction." She admitted, her hands still covering her face.
I didn't know what to say. I wanted to be mad, but at the same time I couldn't help but feel so sorry for her. I walked away and locked myself into the toilet where I sat down and rested my head on the wall.
"Is dating Geo even worth it anymore?" I whispered to myself. "I'm going to have to leave America soon anyway, and Loren seems like she needs him more than I do.."
I allowed tears to escape from my eyes, and jumped when I heard a knock on the door ten seconds after I had just whispered all of my thoughts out loud.
"Lucy?"
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Sorry that this chapter took a while to publish, I tried to make it really long :)
