Torn up. ~Flamingeos Fanfiction

Chapter 148

Tears streamed down my eyes as I ran out to find somewhere to hide. Eventually I found a little hideaway like place outside and sat down on a white bench which stood there. The place was quite romantic, surrounding the white bench were beautiful pink blossoms trees, and in front was a vintage looking bird bath. A relaxing trickling sound of water caused my breathing to slow down, and a bright sun which slanted across my face brightened up the hideaway place, as though the sun was specifically put in one place so it would brighten up this mysterious area. I found myself hugging my knees as my chin rested on them and my eyes soon began to close. I need to stop having these panic attacks, god knows what it makes Geo think of me. 

Ten or so minutes had past. I was close to falling asleep, the warm sun and comforting sound of water made it hard for me not to. But my heart soon found itself racing again when I heard voices coming towards me. It sounded like a girl and a boy. The girl let out a soft giggle which gave me a rush of memories of when Geo and I were nothing but best friends, and how he'd make me giggle like that. I'd purposefully try to make my giggles sound cute just so Geo would think that I was cute, and I liked to think that it worked as whenever I would giggle he'd give me the most romantic gaze I've ever had the pleasures of looking at. His eyes would warm up and his lips would stretch into a small yet extremely happy smile. Moments like that made me forget everything. 

Their voices were getting nearer, and I desperately searched around the hideaway to look for places I could run out of which means I wouldn't have to run in their direction. There was no luck, I'd have to awkwardly walk past them with mascara running down my cheeks and smudged lipstick from me rubbing my mouth. I looked dreadful, I know I did. 

Oh god. Their voices were getting louder and louder. My cheeks were burning at this point, it was like-

Wait... what? 

No... it can't be. Not today. Out of all the days, why today? Why this one day? 

"L-Lucy?"

"Jack. Isla." They both looked insane. They've always looked insane, and till this day will be the hottest couple I will ever see. Jack never fails to make me wonder how he ever liked me, Isla is out of this world. And so is he. I was so, so lucky.

Why am I thinking like this again? Why can't I just get over Jack and focus on Geo? Why do I always have to do this! 

"Are you okay?" Isla ran up to me and sat down on the bench. She put her arm around me and hugged me close to her. I couldn't help but feel a rush of guilt when she showed me such kindness, I really don't deserve this from her. If I was Isla I'd hate my guts. 

"Yeah... just my anxiety." I smiled forcefully, accepting the tissue she offered me and wiping away the tears which had soaked my jumper's sleeves. Jack awkwardly stood above us, clearly unsure of what to do or say. Even though I was looking down, I could just about see Isla gesturing for Jack to help me as well. Jack looked at her as if to say: "what the hell do you expect me to do?", which made Isla roll her eyes. A pang of sadness hit me when Jack then shrugged. I couldn't see his face at this point, but I didn't really want to. Months ago if I was sad he'd be the first to comfort me and act like an overprotective brother. Even if we can't be together, I at least want us to stay close friends. We've had too many memories together for me to just dismiss him out of my life easily. 

"Me and Jack came here to see you." Isla told me, "we heard you were in hospital."

"Yeah... America is so beautiful, I'm glad I didn't decide to stay in England." Jack's eyes were bright as he stared at his girlfriend, "oh... and I wanted to see you too?" He sounded doubtful when he said that last sentence, and I was unsure whether he purposefully meant to sound like thaat or not.

"How's Geo?" Isla clearly was trying to quickly change the subject, she probably saw the look of disappointment on my face as I gazed at Jack. I quickly snapped out of my gaze and stared at Isla. 

"He's good." I told her honestly, "we're out of hospital tomorrow."

"That's great!" She grinned, "I heard tour is starting next week."

I nodded. Although I was unsure of doing tour because of Ariel, I'm sure Ariel would want us to do it anyway, instead of staying unhappy by mourning over her death. "Mario and Ariel wont be doing it this year, so it'll just me Loren, me, Jack, Geo and a few other social media stars."

"Well...that's great." Jack looked inpatient, as though he wanted me to leave. "See you there then."

I stared at him in suprise. He's leaving this soon? 

"Yeah... see you then?"

He then smiled and walked off, not bothering to wait for Isla who gave me a hug. She then wished me good luck for god knows what, and ran off to catch up her boyfriend. I stared at her run off until she was out of sight, feeling my heart drop and break. I miss the times when we were all good friends in high school. Isla was my best friend, but now she acts like I'm just someone who she feels sympathy for. Yeah, she was nice. But she wasn't the same. We didn't have that same connection we used to have, where the second we'd be together we'd talk for ages about our life and boys. 

As for Jack... he clearly couldn't care less about me. 

Picture above is Isla, picture below is Jack. I've changed Jack's appearance to be Wesley's instead of Manu's, because I feel like Wesley's appearance suits Jack's personality a lot more then Manu's appearance does.