Torn up. ~Flamingeos Fanfiction

Chapter 122

After I sat down next to Geo on the bed, pretending to not notice him putting his top back on, he looked at me with a more confused than concerned frown. 

"You look agitated." He observed. I wanted him to grab my hand or cuddle with me, but he didn't. A space was in-between our bodies, probably because Geo was too scared to upset me. "Lucy I know something's up. You've been acting upset all the time for ages. Just talk to me, I promise I don't bite."

I couldn't help but let out a grin after Geo said that dad joke. I then took a deep breath, trying to stop my tears from escaping out of my eyes. I hate it when I cry in front of people, it makes me feel like I'm seeking for attention. 

"Geo.." I began, feeling a rock in my throat. "Geo I don't know what's up with me.. the simplest things make me sad a-and.."

I couldn't keep it in anymore. I burst into tears, feeling annoyed at myself for giving in. Geo shuffled closer to me and placed his warm hand over mine. I tilted my head so it was resting on Geo's, feeling his soft hair tickle my forehead whilst trying my best to stop crying. But I couldn't. 

"And what?" Whispered Geo, staring ahead with sad eyes himself. 

There was a silence. To be honest I didn't know what to say or more specifically where to start. There was so much to tell him. About my mum, Isla and Oliver, even Jack. It seems as though everyday a problem keeps me up at night. I've come to the point where I can't be strong anymore, I just feel weak. 

"You do still love me.. right?"

I sat up and then stared at Geo in shock. "Geo!" I gasped, feeling even more tears trickle down my neck. "Geo I've never loved anyone as much as you."

Geo's gaze focused on the floor. I've been so focused on all my problems that I've forgotten about Geo. About how Geo feels with what happened with Logan, Jack, Dylan. I've forgotten that my actions are hurting him. 

"I saw you with Dylan." He told me, his voice suddenly sounding low and serious. His upset eyes then turned to me and he added: "he likes you."

"And I don't care." I whispered, feeling my heart beat quicken in panic. "He's an f boy, he'll get over me in time."

"Lucy trust me Dylan has only fancied one other girl in this school."

"But that doesn't mean that he wont get over me-"

"Do you know what Dylan has done to me?"

I shook my head, speechless. It's been a while since me and Geo have argued, and I remember that the last time we did had a huge one it went terribly. Now whenever we argue I feel the same anxiety I felt those days. Such a horrible feeling. 

"He spread rumours about me, beat me up, forced me to smoke with him. He treated me like shit. All because me and Loren became close."

"He fancied Loren?"

Geo nodded and then let out a what seemed like sad sigh. He rubbed his eyes, afterwards collapsing onto his bed so his back was laying down on it. I then laid down with him on my side so I could stare at his face, as creepy as that may sound. 

"And now he fancies you." Geo murmured angrily. 

"Maybe he doesn't fancy me." I thought out loud, "maybe he's just trying to steal every girl off you because he's a jealous jerk."

Geo shrugged, obviously not agreeing with me. He then sat up and yawned, stretching his arms. We sat there in silence for a while until the door of Geo's house opened and in came an excited sounding Jennishka with one of her friends. 

Geo rolled his eyes playfully and then patted my back, soon after walking out of the room to have a go at his sister. I stayed where I was and listened to their conversation in amusement. 

"Where the hell were you?" Was how Geo greeted her whilst I heard him run down the stairs. 

"You took too long." Jennishka answered, sounding unbothered. I heard her friend let out a giggle and I couldn't help but feel annoyed. It was such a forced girly giggle, something Loren usually did. I then heard footsteps going upstairs and a very annoyed sounding Geo protest. 

"Where the hell are you going?!" He snapped, storming up the stairs and following her. "You do realise Lucy is here? She can hear how much of a diva you're being."

Jennishka let out a snort of laughter and I couldn't help but do the same. But my laughter was for a different reason, it was because it was so amusing listening to them argue. I wish I had a sibling to have unnecessary arguments with. "Listen to yourself Geo."

She then slammed shut the door and seconds later Geo opened the door to his room with flushed cheeks and ruffled hair.

"Wanna stay the night?"