The Daily Journal of an Average Teenaged Girl

Entry #25: 3-21-14

So I was sleeping, and I woke up at 6:30am. I don't have school today, so I tried going back to sleep. Then I was called. I ignored it. Then..

Knock knock knock, I was called down.

"There's no school today!"

Ugh.

I went to sleep again. Only to be woken up by a call by David at 8:00am telling me he's on my drive way. Oh.

I was in a long sleeved shirt, and super short shorts. I went downstairs to let him in. Still wearing those pjs. The most comfy thing to wear, but kinda embarrassing to wear around him. So we went to my room, and I was too tired. It took me an hour to finally except that I had to get up. In that hour, we listened to all sorts of music.

We decided I should change my shorts, only because it made me uncomfortable. So I changed into soft, cupcake pants. Yes... While he was in the room. Shuttup.

Then we practiced. And I surprised myself by nailing parts I never got before. It was exciting. Then we went downstairs to eat breakfast. I had eggs, and he had pancakes. We brought the drums to the family room, and practiced there too. Then, after my brother left, and we were alone, we did a different type of practicing. We were finding beats to random songs. It was fun. Unfortunately, he had to leave around 12:30-1:00. So while we were packing up, he really wanted me to read his intro from the journal. And I did. And he loved it. I also read Rant#1 and Rant#5. I really wondered how he didn't feel awkward after I technically told him I love him, how I want to tell him I love him everytime we part, that I want to kiss him, and have had daydreams.. About.. Us. Sexually. I HAVE NO IDEA HOW HE DIDNT FEEL AWKWARD.

Ahem.

Again, we expressed about how he's afraid to lose me if we ever broke up. I told him we will ALWAYS be friends. Then he started saying that I deserve someone better than him, and that he didn't deserve someone as amazing as me. I argued. I told him that he was perfect for me, I have never wanted some one so badly. But, NooOOoo! He still doubted himself. I sighed.

But he teased me a tiny bit, and when he hugged me when he had to leave, he said, "I love youu!" And I blushed and said "I love you too.." back. Then, when he left, I did the dishes, my nails, and worked to keep the house clean. I also washed my tie, because it had a stain.

So after all of that, my mom came home, and we all watched Food Network on TV.

And slowly but surly my heart stared beating harder and harder. One because of the contest tomorrow. Two, because of David. I continued to daydream. The main thing I daydreamed is about tomorrow. We would finish our piece, and in another room we would double-high five. And he would intertwine our hands, hold them, and he would kiss me.

Aww man. Still going insane.

I feel so bad for David. The only things that are holding him from dating me is that he is afraid to lose me, and because he doesn't feel like he's "good enough" for me. That I deserve better. If only he knew.

Oh my god. What if RJ is right? What if we do start dating tomorrow? I'm making myself more nervous than I should be. Damnit Sharpie.

Then, after all of that, I helped my mom with a project until 7:30, made myself a quick dinner, and went to bed. I needed to sleep if I was going to wake up AT 6 O'CLOCK IN THE MORNING.

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As I was in bed, finishing the journal, Mason the cat once again ran up the bed, and licked my scalp. He is so weird!

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I'm so nervous! Well... There's only one thing to do!

Keep Smiling!

~Sharpie