The Daily Journal of an Average Teenaged Girl

Entry #62: 5-3-14

Never would I have ever thought that David would be at my house til 2am. Yesterday, David came over around 9, and stayed til 2. I was telling him what was going on, and what had terrified me. He said that he understands, and he's always here for me. Around 10:50pm we walked the dogs, and came back at 11:40. Collin somehow got drunk, and he gave us money to go to McDonalds after that. At midnight. I got a medium chocolate milkshake, Collin and David got a MNM McFlurry, and we got mom a vanilla shake.

Then we made a second run at 1am, getting us all food.

We were talking in the car, and the subject of dating and stuff came up. When he had gotten out of the car, he'd said, "You deserve better than me." And we were still outside. That statement flabbergasted me.

"Excuse me, hold on!" I proclaimed as he stopped and looked at me. "Who or what the hell can be better than being here at 1'o clock in the morning trying to make me feel better??"

"Someone who will always love you forever!" He says.

"And you're saying that you don't?"

He paused. I told him that he just twisted his words. And he agreed. Because he does love me, and apparently, always and forever.

I sighed.

I wonder what's stopping him from dating me.

Around 1:40, his mom called, saying he should get back soon, he said he understood. So what do we do? Play with the cat. We played with him for about 20 minutes, and then he had to go. I hugged him for as long as I could, and then he left.

Then I wrote the rest of yesterday's journal, and went to sleep.

I woke up at 11:30. I was really tired. My brother played some war games with me. I really couldn't be any more happier with David and I's relationship. Because it's not just a 'regular' friendship anymore. It's something more. I actually had told him "I love you" a few times. I must have been an emotional mess... But I do love him. More now than ever.

Later, my mom was crying all over again, and all. And she suggested me to go to Donny and Theresa's house. I've known them my entire life. Donny is technically my godfather..? I'm not sure. But my mom and them are very close. And their kid, Rachel, I like my little cousin. And they just had another kid, named Joshua. They have a dog, who is so fucking hyper, holy shit.

I had Chinese food for dinner, and watched a movie. I fell asleep on the couch. I was tired for some reason.

Keep Smiling.

~Sharpie