Short Poems

Dear Cole 4-21-18

The true meaning of a broken heart
The intolerable
Pain
From missing them.

I regret everything,
And I can't believe,
I just keep running back.
You are my home,
You are my comfort zone,
You were my soft landing.

This hurts so much.
This is the reason
Why I can't love anyone...
You still have my heart,
And you don't even know it.

I know I say sorry,
Like a bad habit.
Were we destined
To fall apart?
Why does it hurt so much.

You weren't my first...
I didn't lose my virginity to you,
You were my first love.
You made my heart skip a beat,
And now you make it
Yearn with pain.
It crumbles at your name.

Everytime I message you,
I regret it.
My heart still
Beats to the music you loved.
Can't you just tell me to go away?
Why don't you save me the heartache,
Like how I did for you.
I told you good bye so you wouldn't
Have to be in pain
If I left this Earth.

I tried to let you down gently,
But there's no such thing.
I'm sorry.

I hate those words,
I am sorry.
They suck,
And they hurt.
But I am.

I never wanted you to be upset.
I never wanted you to be in pain.
I fell in love...
And can't fall out of it.

I try,
And I can't.

You mean everything to me.
It has alsmost been two years...
Maybe three.
And I don't and can't do it alone.

I'm not obsessed...
I'm just in love,
And miss you.
I'll give you space...
That's what I did,
For almost a full year.
But I couldn't.
It hurt too much.

I don't know what is wrong with me...
But they weren't kidding...
Your first love
Does hurt.
It's the hardest one to ever deal with,
But do you ever get over them?
I don't know...

I don't want to spend my whole life
Wondering if you'll have me back,
Or me chasing you...
Trying to ask for forgiveness.
I just can't.

I understand,
Even if you love someone,
That doesn't mean they love
Or want
You back.

So I'm sorry if I'm interfering
In your life,
And all your plans.
I just want a do over.
Though,
I won't get one.

I'm sorry
And
I love you
Cole,
Wish things
Would have turned
Out way better
Then they
Had.