Short Poems

So Sorry

Hey,
It's me...
Know you haven't heard from me in...
Forever...
But I want you to know...
I miss you everyday.
When it rains,
I feel the pain,
Just creep up on me.
I'm sorry,
For the way things are.
I know you didn't ask for these things.
I know you didn't want to have a broken heart,
And it is my fault.
I am a selfish person I guess.
It's just,
I didn't think things would end this way.
Sometimes I look,
Just to see if you messaged me...
But you haven't.
I feel like I'm dying,
Alone on this death bed...
The one we swore to lie in together...
But the world keeps rolling,
Even tho you aren't here.
You were the best thing that happened to me.
And you know it.
I can say that everything was your fault...
I can say it was your idea.
I can say I was trying to protect you...
But the truth is,
I got so scared...
Now I feel sorry for myself...
Cause you're not in my life.
I remember the plans,
Now I'm scared to make plans with people,
Cause I'm afraid I'll let them down,
Just like I let you down.
It rained today...
And I remember telling you,
I like crying in the rain,
Cause then you don't know if I'm crying or if it's the sky's tears.
I remember when you said,
I looked beautiful,
With water droplets in my hair.
I remember your voice,
Always cheering me up.
When I was down,
You swore when you'd see my again, to smother me in hugs.
I remember the fact,
I was so madly in love with you.
I know now...
It's so hard to let people go...
I know I took everything for granted.
God...
Sometimes I just miss you so much,
It hurts and I cry...
And I lie to people,
Saying I'm just emotional.
People know I'm lying,
But don't want to dig.
Hahaha,
You should see me now.
Feeling sorry for myself.
I can try as hard as I can,
To get over you...
But I can't.
People in my future...
Can never replace you.
Cause you were the first...
And I wanted you to be my last.