Short Poems

... 4-19-20

Fuck feelings...
Fuck emotions and desires.
Just forget the thought of caring for others.
No matter how much a person cares for another...
They most likely,
Will never get to confess,
Or will even get a chance to express themselves.

You know I wanted you...
But it isn't up to me to put us together.
But even if I had the magic to do it...
I wouldn't.

How can someone who is mixed up,
Just pick?
It's difficult...
And everything you choose...
You regret.

All I wish is...
For you to be near.
Would you forgive me?
Forgive me for being naive?
Or forgive me for me being such an innocent child?

I swear...
I need you...
I miss you...
I don't know what to do anymore...

I'm just a hopeless person.
Someone who doesn't know how to deal with loss.
Someone...
Who listens to the songs you danced to...

Wish you'd take my hand,
And take my heart...
And dance to our song...
But how can that be when the seasons change
And we both are gone?

You know...
I wish I wasn't such a screw up...
Cause then we'd be together still.
It makes me smile thinking of our,
Would have been life...
But then I cry.

I search the skies,
For your face...
But it is just blank up there.

I look for your eyes...
They were so beautiful.
I look for your smile,
Cause I remember the taste of it...
I remember your lips on mine...
I can't believe i still miss and love you.

It pains me to just think of you,
And how you meant the world...
But when everyone moves on...
Did you?

Are you like the world that has deserted me?
And has pushed me into this dark bubble
Of pity and despair?

You still capture me like no other...
You had me...
And I had you...
God I miss that

We were a pair.
Like one plus one
Equalled two.

I wish you had given me your heart
Just like I handed you mine.
God...
Just please come back.

Can I say...
I hate my own gut,
Yet I lie to myself
Saying I hate you...

I know I swallowed the bitter pill...
It has slowly
Absorbed into my body...
Causing me to dance and sing
To my own depression.
I'm sorry I have come around late.
I didn't realize I loved you so much,
Till I lost you.

I'm sorry,
I still love you.