Short Poems

Fear Of The Rejection I

Lips upon lips,

Locked.

Locked the chain that was been wrapped around my heart.

Locked,

Like the lock that has been put upon the safe,

That protects me from pain.

Locked,

Yeah you can say that.

The walls were built so no one could break,

Nor climb them.

Yet...

Somehow...

You seem to have found the weak spot,

Striking it,

With love and compassion,

It fell.

Not a slow crumble,

But like an explosion was set off from deep within.

Forcing everything to the ground.

Emotions that had been hid,

Started to surface,

And seemed to have drown me in a river of self pity.

Finally letting all the emotions go,

Tears started to flow from my eyes.

Sending a coursing river down my cheeks.

As his hands grasped my face,

He pulled me closer.

Gently brushing his lips against mine.

Kissing away the pain.

His breathing sent me into a state of seclusion,

Where it was only him an I against the world.

Longing and hunger started to feed upon my insides,

Wanting to be closer,

Needing to feel that shelter and love that I had been denied in the past.

Gathering up the strength that I had hidden in the past,

I clung on for dear life.

Hoping and praying,

That this was the last time.

Last time to be vulnerable,

The last time to open up and feel something other than the pain and sadness of this world.

The very last time to say those three empty words.

The simple phrase that could destroy someone's life.

The three words that are the scariest to say, 

And actually mean.

Not wanting the moment to end,

The words slipped out.

innocently playing with his mind.

Thoughts flushed his face,

His lips turned from a blank stare into a surprised smile.

His eyes shone,

Brighter than the sun that was gleaming through the window.

Slight tears weld in my eyes as I realized what I had just said.

Realization swept over me,

Like a tidal wave.

Fear struck my heart as I came to the conclusion,

I was about to be rejected.

Please....

I prayed.

Please tell me I didn't screw this up.

Tears started to threaten to fall.

Gulping in the air,

I braced for the fall.

Praying not to fall an crash into the rocks at the bottom of this cliff called love.

Squeezing my eyes closed,

I braced myself.

Not feeling like I was falling,

I opened my eyes,

And my heart opened up as he whispered those three words back. 

I love you.

The faint....

I love you,

Coursed through my veins,

Filling me up with intoxicated bliss.

Sending me to a place beyond the sky.

A place that could only be called....

Nirvana.