Short Poems

Part 1: Broken For You 9-7-19

How can I tell him I love him,
When I love another?
How can I be his everything,
When...
You are still my everything.
Hearing your voice in the dark,
I wake to the aching in my heart...
Knowing I won't be opening my eyes to you...
It will be him.
Heart break.
How can I do this to him?
And he be okay with it...
Just so he can have someone to call his own finally.
I can show him the love I would have given you...
But it hurts me,
Cause it's not you.
I just want your lips on mine.
I want your hands on my body.
I want to feel you in me.
Holding me as close as you can.
Pounding away the pain,
Yanking on my hair,
Telling me how much you want and need me.
Telling me things that he can't.
Whispering to me,
Showing me the hunger you have for my flesh.
The lust for my touch.
I want to taste you,
Feel you,
Be with you...
I want to be suffocated by you.
I want your love to be so unbearable,
I give in...
I want these tears to go away.
I want this loneliness to disintegrate.
He says I saved his life,
But I wanted to save you...
How could I let myself love you this much?
I'd break everyone's heart for you,
I'd scalp every last one,
Just so you know I'm all yours.
I want to disappear with you,
Away from the chaos of life.
Gain new identities,
Be someone new with you.
I'd get used to you hurting me,
Just as long as you loved me...
Holding me at night,
Comforting me,
To prove you're mine,
Not the others.
Only telling me,
You love me.
Only kissing me.
Only babying me...
I want to be the only one,
But if you are into having others...
I'd do anything for you...
Broken,
I'd stay broken for you.
If you want me to,
I will.
Anything to have you mine.
I know,
It is immature,
But how can I tell myself that I can't love you?