Hamilton Oneshots!

May You Always... Be Satisfied (PT. 2) {Laurens x Reader}

part two of "I Will Never Be Satisfied".

pairing; john laurens (x peggy schuyler) x reader

time; modern

warnings; more sad reader-chan

type of oneshot; angst

requested?; yes. by onewierdfangirl as you already know

let's get on with the sadness... and the jeggy

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~ month time skip ~

Your POV

It's been a month since I found out John and Peggy were together. Needless to say, I've been avoiding them. I haven't replied to their texts, let their calls ring. The closest I could call talking to one of them is talking to Eliza and some people like Alex, Laf, and Herc. Pretty much everyone but them. No one knows why except for Eliza and Maria. Angie knows a little bit, but not everything.

Despite all that, musical rehearsals have been going great! The director really likes my voice and Eliza and I are always toying around when we can, still getting our work done of course. If anything, I've gotten closer to Eliza and Maria. Sure I was already close to them, but they've started filling the void that John and Peggy once had. I feel kinda bad for replacing Peggy with her sister, but I don't know what to do anymore.

I had seen John and Peggy almost everywhere. I usually saw John giving Peggy a piggyback and running around the park. People seemed to adore them as a couple, and they didn't seem to miss me anyways. Sure I had caught them looking at me, but I never stayed long enough. It hurt to look at them together for more than a second. Even after a month, the pain lingered, but luckily I had Liza and Maria to help me.

Currently, I was watching (F/S) in my dorm with Maria. We were waiting for Eliza to get back from Starbucks.

I heard my dorm door open. "I'm back!" Eliza called.

"Welcome back!" I replied.

"Gimme Starbucks, Elizaaaaa!" Maria exclaimed. I couldn't help but laugh at her.

Eliza came into view and handed Maria her drink, and me a (F/D).

"You know me so well, Liza," I said.

Eliza giggled. "Only because you get it everytime we go to Starbucks, (N/N)."

I noticed she also had a paper in her dress pocket. "What's the paper, Liza?"

She looked at the paper. "Riiiight... that! Um... I may or may not have run into John and Peggy at Starbucks... John asked me to give it to you."

Eliza pulled the paper out of her pocket and handed it to me. I sighed before opening it and seeing John's familiar scribble. I read it aloud.

'(Y/N),

You've been ignoring Peggy and I for a month now. The last time we actually talked was when you were at my dorm! You were so happy that night! Why did you suddenly disappear? What did I do so suddenly?

I know this'll be given to you one way or another on the day I write this, in other words the day you get this. Meet me at the park at 10 tonight, I want to talk to you. Please show up, I miss my best friend.

From,
John'

I stuttered on the words 'best friend', the night playing all over again.

Maria scoffed. "He wants to talk now? This is bullsh*t!"

I sighed. "Might as well talk to him, I have nothing to lose. May as well confess too. It won't do sh*t anyways except ruin whatever was left of our friendship. Peggy's too."

Eliza nodded sadly, and Maria just scoffed again. Eliza looked at me sympathetically.

"How about we just binge Netflix and enjoy our Starbucks until you have to go? We have about three hours anyways."

I nodded, and Eliza plopped down next to me.

~ time skip to 10 ~

I had just arrived in the park. Even in the dark, I could make out John's silhouette on a bench. I approached the bench slowly.

"Hey John..."

Said guy turned immediately at the sound of my voice. He practically jumped off the bench. "(N/N)!"

His arms wrapped around me in a tight hug, but I could barely get myself to hug back. I couldn't.

John let go. "We need to talk," I mumbled. I sat on the bench and John sat next to me. I felt his hazel eyes on me but I looked at the ground.

John spoke first, as I thought. "Why (Y/N)? Why do distant?"

I sighed, feeling the tears all over again. "It's... it's not simple, John."

I gained the courage to look up. His hazel eyes were sad and pleading. "Please tell me, (Y/N). Please..."

I shook my head, looking away. "It'll ruin whatever we have left!" I exclaimed.

I could see John shake his head. "No it won't. Just tell me. Please."

I gave in. "Fine... fine." I couldn't even look him in the eye.

How pathetic...

"I can't believe I'm doing this. Call me crazy, John. But... but I like you. Not like... friend like... but like... I love you. Like Peggy does... I'm sorry, John."

John didn't reply, but his eyes were wider. I stood up. "Sorry for being an idiot, Johnny. May you always... be satisfied... with Peggy. I know you will."

I just ran. I heard John faintly call my name once but I kept running.

~ another month time skip ~

I haven't spoken with John since, and I haven't talked to Peggy since the night two months ago. But now, both of them rarely even acknowledge me. I knew that I f*cked up last month.

If anything, John and Peggy are closer, no surprise. I still see them everywhere, but now they don't even look at me. We went from awkward to beyond repair, and it was my fault..

My last words to John echoed in my head as I walked by the very same bench we talked on a month ago, and all I could do was curse at myself. I was a fool.

"May you always... be satisfied..."

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bleh sorry this is so long. I hope this was good though! cya next time!

~ Galaxy