Hamilton Oneshots!

Apologies (PT. 2) {Daveed x Reader}

she ain't gonna die don't worry I'm not that mean

pairing; daveed diggs x reader

time; modern

warnings; none besides mentions of sad Thayne

type of oneshot; angsty but a fluffy ending

requested?; non

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~ one week later (i'm writing a let-- sorry not the time) ~

Daveed's POV

She still hadn't woke up. Not once. The doctors said she had a fifty-fifty chance of either living or dying, and I took the blame. Everyone else tried to tell me it wasn't all my fault, but I brushed them off. She wouldn't have left the apartment if I actually paid attention.

I found myself visiting often, but I surprisingly couldn't stay for long. Seeing her unresponsive was only a reminder of how much of an idiot I was (yOu tHinK-- sorry Daveed ily).

Everyone else was off too, especially Thayne. Her best friend, partner in crime. He wasn't even mad at me for some reason. He was always upset, and not even Jon could pull him out of his mood for five minutes. It was taking a toll on all of us.

All we could do was hope that she wasn't gonna leave us behind.

Your POV (*LE GASP*)

I couldn't see anything. I could barely feel anything. But I could hear. Mostly. I couldn't get myself to wake up no matter how hard I tried. I was stuck hearing the people I loved cry. I was stuck hearing Thayne cry, hearing Renée cry. And I was stuck hearing the words that came out of Daveed's mouth; the blame he constantly took, the apologies. I wanted to wake up. To tell him I wasn't mad, that I loved him.

But I couldn't.

I could tell today was a day more than one cast member was in the room. There was chatter. People were talking to me. But I couldn't reply.

"Hey, (N/N)." It was Thayne. "You probably can't hear a word I'm saying right now, but that's okay! I just wanted to warn you... if you don't come back soon I'm going after your cookies... and I know you wouldn't want that." I could hear the small smile in his voice, the sad laugh. I wanted to laugh, to smile. But maybe I did smile, because there was excited noise.

"She-- she smiled! A bit! She must've heard me!" I could imagine the wide smile on Thayne's face. I heard Jon laugh.

"I guess you were the first one to make Thayne smile -a true smile-, in a while, (N/N). I'm not surprised though. Do come back soon; I can only dance with Betsy during these shows for so long," Jon said. Jon was my dance partner for the show.

"Hey!" It was Betsy.

More excited voices, mostly Thayne's ("She smiled again! She knows we're here!"). If only you guys knew.

There was a small pause of quiet whispers I couldn't make out. "You wanna say something, Diggs?" I heard Anthony ask. So he was in the room.

There was another pause. "I'll just say it when you guys leave." He sounded as close as Thayne was. I'm guessing they were on either side of me.

The remaining people there started talking about what they liked about me, how much they missed me. There was constant excited voices because, finally...

I could feel myself smile.

~ small skip ~

It was quiet. I missed Thayne's excited voice, Jon's funny dance remarks. But I knew Daveed was still there. Faintly, I could make out the feeling of someone holding my hand. I was starting to regain everything.

"I... I know I say the same thing every time... but I don't know what else to say..." Daveed started. He really did say a lot of similar things since I could finally hear. It was always him cursing himself out, apologizing for letting me leave the apartment. He'd always say how much he loved me. How much of an *ss he was being for leaving me alone. I wanted to hold onto him so bad.

Today's words from him were no different. Except for one thing. One of the last things he said.

"I-I wanted to marry you soon. Please wake up, (N/N)..."

I could feel his grip on my hand tighten slightly as he cried. Then I surprised myself. I squeezed his hand gently. The room was silent a moment.

"(N/N)... squeeze my hand again if you can understand me."

I did it again. I heard his breathing hitch. And finally, I actually could feel everything.

I tried opening my eyes. Nothing. I tried again. Slowly, a white light pushed away all the black. The world was slowly rebuilding itself around me. When everything was finally not-so-blurry, I turned my head slightly, looking into Daveed's shocked, dark brown eyes. "H-hi..." I muttered hoarsely.

I could tell Daveed was trying to take a moment to process everything. Feeling some strength returning to me, I managed to sit up, ignoring the pain in my side. "D-Daveed... say something... please."

He blinked, suddenly regaining himself, but tears were still streaming down his cheeks. I brought my hand up to his cheek, wiping away his tears. He pulled into a sudden hug, trying his best to not hurt my side. I didn't hesitate hugging him back. "I heard everything..." I whispered, giggling slightly.

"You did..?"

"Yeah... marrying you would be nice. I'm not mad at you, Daveed.."

"But you should be... I may as well be the sh*ttiest boyfriend ever. I'm sorry..."

I pulled away. "But you're not. That's behind us now... we can start over..."

Daveed nodded slowly. "Yeah... we can..."

I wrapped my arms around him again, burying my face in the crook of his neck. "I love you.." I said after a moment.

Daveed's arms wrapped around my waist gently. "I love you more, (N/N)."

With that, we enjoyed the silence until we had to get the doctors.

Sorry Heaven... you're gonna have to wait a while longer to catch me.

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bAm. hope you guys like it! i'll cya next oneshot!

~ Galaxy