Hamilton Oneshots!

Alright (PT. 2) {Laurens x Despondent! Reader}

pairing; john laurens x despondent! reader

time; modern

warnings; minor sadness

type of oneshot; kinda sad but fluffy end

requested?; nah

song above; alright by anthony ramos (I had to this was the perfect oppurtunity--)

enjoy~!

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John's POV

I found myself at the foot of (Y/N)'s bed again. Still nothing. I looked at her, then the sunlight streaming into the room. The weather seemed too good outside. I wasn't aware of Alex coming into the room. "John?"

I looked up at the doorway, seeing a concerned Alex. "Hey Lex.."

He walked into the room. "Would you wanna go to Central Park with the guys and I?" he asked quietly, something unlike his usual loud demeanor. This whole thing had really changed all of us. We were all so much quieter, even Herc and Alex. It just didn't seem right without her.

I thought a moment, kissing (Y/N)'s hand and standing up. "Sure."

Alex smiled at me and followed me out the door. I quickly put on some sneakers and we walked out, me locking the door behind us. Maybe this was what I needed.

Your POV

Dark. Broken.

It was all I felt.

She's gone. She's gone. She's--

My body was still, but my mind was racing a billion miles an hour. I felt helpless, hopeless, without her. She was my everything; my will to live. Aside from John of course...

John...

There was something deep down, trying to fight the silence. Trying to fight away the dark. It wasn't overpowered, like everything else. It was a sliver of light, a figure, trying to grow stronger over everything.

Fight. Fight. Fight.

The light figure was growing. Fight, it said.

For him, she said.

It was an inner battle. That small, growing part of me against all the negativity. I didn't know the time anymore, I forgot a while ago. But that's when I heard something. Like pressing a volume button, it grew louder, clearer.

A song.

His voice.

"Cause we gon be alright, don't fall apart.
Cause we gon be alright, don't lose your heart.
We can make it through today.
There's a light inside to guide us,
One step further from afraid."

He was singing my favorite song. Our song...

My eyes were closed; I could see the light figure growing bigger with the words. I could hear him singing almost crystal clear. Yet there was still dark in the way.

"Ooo, everybody's talking 'bout leaving.
Well I'm gon stay right here
And pledge my allegiance."

I'm gon stay right here... I saw a figure. Not myself. My sister.

That's when things came flooding into my mind faster than anything else. She'd still be here. She's with me. She'd never leave me alone.

'I'll be right here,' she said. 'I'll always be right here.' Then she vanished.

But then I opened my eyes; everything was crystal clear. Yet John didn't notice.

"Oh, cause my little sister she needs me.
She don't need no one saying what she can do.
Oh, and my little brother believe me.
You can do anything you said you might do."

"And don't have all the answers, but I've learnt a thing or two.
Oo yeah, I've learnt a thing or two."

The race in my mind was slowing down slightly. And the dark was gone.

"And I know that we gon be alright,"

"Don't fall apart."

He stopped at the sound of my quiet voice, but continued in a shaky voice.

"C-cause we gon be alright,"

"Don't lose your heart..."

"W-we can make it through today
There's a l-light inside to guide us,"

"One step further from afraid."

I finally adjusted myself, getting all feeling for the first time in what must've been a month. I felt John's hazel eyes on me, and I finally got the courage to turn my head and meet his eyes.

My (E/C) eyes met his shocked hazel gaze, tears crystallizing in his eyes. I saw his hand move to grab mine, interlacing our fingers. I smiled softly at him, squeezing his hand. That's when he broke down.

John's hand clutched mine tightly and his free hand rested against his face as he sobbed. I finally pulled myself upright, facing him. I unlaced our fingers, moving his hand away from his face. I cupped his face with both hands, wiping away the rapidly falling tears. It almost broke me again seeing him this vulnerable, and a part of me knew it was my fault.

I removed my hands, wrapping my arms around his neck tightly. John positioned himself so he was facing me and his arms wrapped around my waist immediately, pulling me flush against him. I felt him shaking under my touch, and I kept repeating "I'm sorry" over and over again, until I felt tears in my own eyes. I ignored the tears, moving one hand to rub John's back gently.

We finally pulled apart after many moments, him finally much calmer. I couldn't help but look away, feeling such an intense wave of shame. John placed his hand under my chin, making me look up at him. I blinked away the tears, John wiping some away.

"I-I'm sorry..." I whispered.

John shook his head. "Don't be. You have no reason to be."

"B-but I left you all alone! All because I couldn't h-handle myself!" I cried.

John pulled me into another tight hug, and I buried my head in his chest. He rubbed my back, pressing a gentle kiss to the top of my head.

"It doesn't matter. You're here, and that's all that matters to me, chickadee."

I took a shaky breath, letting him hold onto me. He kissed my head again after some silence. "We'll be alright. You'll be alright. I promise you, chickadee."

I believed him. I believed every word he said.

We're gonna be alright.

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what a ride! I hope you guys liked this, and I wanted to thank you all for such love and support. I never thought I'd reach 1k, let alone be halfway to 3k. so really, thank you guys💕

and one last thing; let this two-part oneshot be a lesson to remember...

never keep your emotions bottled up. it's so unhealthy. take it from me; I have that problem. instead, talk to someone. talk to a parent, a sibling, a friend of yours. hell, if you ever feel like it, talk to me. I may not know you guys personally, but I will try my best to help you. I might not give the best advice, but I'm here for you guys. remember that.

I love you guys, and I'll cya next oneshot!

~ Galaxy💙