Unwanted Romance [COMPLETED] #Wattys2019

27. His Plan

Killian Giovani's Point of view

I walked away. Wala akong maramdaman kundi panlalamig ng kamay at pagkabigo.

I deeply sighed as I see my friends smiling and having fun. They are enjoying the girls around. Why can't I do the same? Why can't  I just look at the seductive eyes of women? Just like that, katulad noon.

Damn, man! Being inlove is so gross! Di ko inexpect na nakakasuka pala 'to, nakakasuka sa sakit, nakakasuka sa kabaliwan. Hindi ko man lang alam kung kelan nagsimula 'tong kagaguhan ko. I just realize that I like her and then suddenly I think I love her.

Lumihis ako mula sa kinaroroonan nila. I rather stay at our room, kaysa manatili sa ganitong lugar without her with me. Naunahan na ko... O mali, gusto talaga ni Alessia ang Paulo na 'yon.

And I need to be happy for her that finally she and that guy is mutually attracted to each other. I messed up my hair, I didn't know how to accept everything. It just so stupid that I wondered if she wanted me, hindi pala. My imagination is very broad as she shows, she lets me do things that friends do not do.

I entered my room and locked it immediately. I dropped my body on the bed and hardly messed up my hair, trying to ease the craziness. Damn. I can't.  Many thoughts of my hopes come out to think of but I'm striving to hear what I heard… He likes Paulo, kailangan kong maging masaya para sa kanya, para sa kanila.

"How can I deal with her? How can I face her? Damn, emotions! I should have prevented it!" I punch the bed, losing my temper. Confusion and anger attacked me. "I should not have said that ... kakaiba talaga, Kane. Gago ka!" I punch myself without any limitation. I stopped, feeling sick and tired.

"Damn, tama siya, tama nga si Kuya… masakit nga." Unti-unting nagtubig ang mata ko. Parang may nagbabara sa lalamunan ko na kung ano, hindi ko mailabas. Masakit. Ito pala yun.

I deeply close my eyes. Parang mas gusto ko nalang makita ang madilim kaysa ang liwanag. Nakakasilaw.

"The feeling of being broken is the hardest days, weeks, months and worst... years, you will encounter for the rest of your life. Be patient. Fight. Don't ever come back and say 'ayaw ko na' mas masakit kapag hindi mo ipinaglaban. Mas masakit kapag pinagsisihan mong sana ginawa mo yung bagay na 'to para sa kanya, para sa huli okay ka na, ginawa mo lahat pero hindi talaga… Tapos. Just don't give up easily. Find a reason to stay and come back when you get tired of choosing her. Yan ang wag na wag mong gagawin, Killian." He is holding a can of beer while I am drinking a glass of pineapple juice.

I admire him. He's so deep. Kita ko kung paano niya minahal si Ate Dianne, but they end up breaking each other's heart.

And the reason is the guy Ate Dianne loved for a long time.

Napamulat ako ng marinig ko ang pagbukas ng pintuan. Kita ko ang pagpasok ni Alessia, agad niyang sinarhan ang pintuan.

"Killian…" Tumayo ako mula sa pagkakahiga. Magtutungo dapat sa bathroom ng marinig ko ang iyak niya, she's crying. What happened?

Agad ko siyang binalingan at dinaluhan. "Why are you crying? What happened?" I cupped her face using my both palms. I'm trying to stop her from crying but unexpectedly, mas lalo lang siyang umiyak.

"Hush, Alessia… Stop crying. Tell me what's wrong." Pinagdikit ko ang noo naming dalawa. I am starting to think that Paulo is the reason why she's crying right now. "Alessia…" I want to punch him hardly!

Inilayo nya mukha sa akin maging ang kamat ko ay hinawi niya. Okay. Distance, Kane… Distance. Nakuyom ko ang kamao ko kasabay ng pagbuga ng hininga.