Secret Mistake

114.

This might be the first couple that might not make it... I'm not completely sure yet... don't hate me 😩

DELANO POV

Gia and I have had plenty of disagreements and arguments. But for some reason the last talk we had it felt different. When she stormed out the kitchen I didn't chase her. That had to be a first.

When I left this morning she didn't say anything to me. Actually she ignored me to the fullest. But being who gia is I didn't think anything of it. Usually we give each other the silent treatment and then we make up. And we were doing so good too.

Calling Gia to check up on how the kids are... but she wasn't answering. This is getting frustrating. Looking at the time I knew she would be fine. So I won't overreact.

Later on, when I got home. It was very quiet. All the lights were off. Which was odd enough. Flicking on the lights I saw no one. Usually Ryan would greet me by the door and he didn't. Wondering if maybe Gia went out with them. Calling her phone again for the twentieth time but no answer. Now I'm getting aggravated.

Walking to the kitchen I see a note on the table. The ring sat on the middle of the note. Feeling my heart sink slowly as I read the letter...

I think it would be best if I went back to Arizona for a little bit. Things with us aren't working the way I would want it to work. I know you don't see it but I do. Maybe it's just me and my mind. But I don't want either of us being unhappy. Don't worry the kids are with me. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I left them with you. Please just give me some space to clear my head. And to see if this is what I truly want. Plus, it'll be good if I hid out from Noah as well. I'm sorry! But I know if I spoke to you about doing this you would stopped me. Again, just give me some space. That's all I ask.

Feeling the anger rise up. She literally left and toon our kids and didn't tell me. I can't believe she did this. Crumbling up the paper and throwing it across the room. Space? What space?. Space for what?.

Trying to calm down because I can start thinking irrationally. And I don't want to end up doing something I'll regret.

*********

GIA POV

Call what you want. But I needed space. With all that's going on with Noah and then Delano I felt suffocated. I could've told Delano my plan but I know he would try and talk me out of it. Or just plain demand that I stay and that I don't need space.

How can someone tell you what's best for you? That's what Delano doesn't seem to understand. "Mommy? Where are we going?" Ryan asked.

"Going to see grandpa!" I said. He smiled big "yay". I called my real dad and asked him if I could for a visit and he approved. He wasn't the person I spent a lot of time with. When we arrived he greeted us with open arms. "Ryan you are getting so big!" He said.

"Not as big as you!" Ryan said. We all shared a big laugh. "Ryan can you go so grandpa and me can talk?". He nodded and disappeared to the basement where the play area was for the kids. "So what's up?".

"Just feeling a little overwhelmed. Just needed to get away for a bit" I said.

"Trouble in paradise?" He asked.

"Something like that. Not sure if I want to be with Delano. I wasn't even sure I wanted to be with him from the beginning. But listening to others and thinking you need two people to raise a child. I just jumped into a relationship with him".

"Gia can I tell you a story?" He asked. I nodded "sure".

"When I met your mom I thought she was the love of my life. Nothing could top our relationship. It started out a friendship and I ended up developing feelings for her. So you could imagine when we slept together how elated I was. But then she disappeared with nothing said. Then I met Bria's mom. And the feeling of love I felt for your mother was love. It was just lust. But Bria's mom that was pure love. And you want to know how I know?".

"How?".

"Because it didn't happen right away. It took years for us to love each other. It took me longer to love her because what your mother did. But over the years the love slowly developed. Actually once I allowed the love to come in then everything fell into place".

"You can't let trauma block you from receiving love. Or you'll always be miserable and always running. As what you're doing now. Delano seems to me that he loves you and he's been patient with you all this time".

I didn't say anything.

"Don't let your past be your present. If someone is willing to love you... let them. Don't nurse the pain and the trauma. Just let it go. And let love in".

"It's not so easy" I said.

"No one said it would be. But you have to take it day by day. And before you know it you'll realize the difference in feelings". This man who was my father had some wise words. "Does Delano know you are here?".

"He knows I'm in Arizona. But no he doesn't know I'm here exactly. I mean Delano is smart he'll figure it out. I just need to be stress free for a little bit. Especially now anyway" I said.

"Pregnant?" He asked.

I nodded "yup..."