Secret Mistake

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GIA POV

After that waste of a conversation I didn't want to be bothered with Delano. Cause for some reason he's just not getting it. And I don't have the breath to waste explaining it to him. Coming to sit outside for a bit so I can be alone for once.

Not for nothing Delano was never like this. When all of this first happened he was a gentleman and he was annoying but he was sweet. Ever since Ryan, he's become a different person. I've noticed it but I tried to ignore it at the same time.

"Gia? Come here, please" Delano yelled. What does he want now?. Getting up I opened up the sliding door and walked inside "what?".

"Come here!" He repeated. Walking to where he was around the kitchen table. A laptop was sitting open at the middle of the long table. "What is going on?" I asked.

"Take a seat" he said. Sitting down I just eyed him cause I wasn't sure what the hell was going on. "Well I figured since we can't solve our issues I brought in a psychologist. This is Jane" he pointed to the lab top. A women waved "well hello. I'm Jane and you must be gia!".

I didn't say anything I just glanced at Delano again. "Really?".

"What? We need help so Jane here will help us" he said.

"Let's get started shall we. Firstly how old are you?" She asked both of us.

"I'm twenty eight" I said.

"And I'm thirty five" Delano said.

"Ah, a bit in age difference but that's okay. And how long have you two been together?".

"Umm... four years" Delano said looking at me. But my focus was on this women who doesn't know anything about us but she's going to fix us. Okay.

"And how did you guys get together?" She asked.

"He trapped me... since we are being honest here" I said.

"Trapped? What do you mean?" She asked.

"I didn't trap you. Ryan just happened" he said.

"Trapped means... he took advantage of an opportunity and well I got pregnant in the end". She looked at Delano "so you two had sex and she got pregnant? Correct?".

He nodded "and if it wasn't for me persuading her Ryan wouldn't be here right now".

"And neither would we... wow!" Rolling my eyes that he even said that.

"Gia? Do you still hold resentment that he got you pregnant? How old were you when you found out?".

"I was twenty four. I wouldn't say resentment but who knows where my life would've taken me if well he didn't do what he did".

"Your life wasn't going anywhere" Delano chimed in.

"Here we go... what's the point of all of this?" I asked. Jane turned to me "Gia how is the relationship with your parents?".

I laughed "well my mom was a abusive fuck who didn't care about anything but herself. And my dad wasn't my real dad. And my real dad well we are working on our relationship".

"Uh huh. So you would say you suffered a lot of abuse during your childhood?" She asked.

Shrugging my shoulders "I guess. What does this have to do with our relationship?".

"Did you ever receive therapy at any point?" She asked.

"A little" I said. She nodded and was scribbling on her note pad in front of her. She stopped and turned to Delano "Okay I have to ask... you knew the circumstances that came with Gia. But you still pursued her anyway, why?".

"I truly love gia. Always have. I can care less if she's damaged goods" he said. Now he wants to be all nice. Show Jane who you really are. "Don't be fooled he's being all sweet but in reality he's a control freak". Delano smirked "here she goes telling me I have a control problem".

"You do..." Jane cleared her throat and looked at me "Gia do you know what a narcissist is?".

"Are you calling me a narcissist?" I asked.

"Yes, from what I'm seeing in body language and just the way you are talking. I mean there's nothing wrong with being a narcissist. Well there is, but I believe due to your severe emotional abuse you suffered and not getting treated for it. This is the end result of it. Now Delano... does Gia ever take responsibility in her actions?".

"No! Never" he answered.

"Does she ever admit when she's wrong?" Delano glanced at me and answered "no".

"How about does she show empathy towards you?" Delano stared at me "not always". Jane nodded "my point. Now Gia I'm not saying this is entirely your fault but at least we have something to work on". This woman is ridiculous and was pissing me off. I got up and walked away. What the fuck does she know anyway?.

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DELANO POV

Watching Gia walk away I apologized to Jane. "Don't be sorry on her behalf. She can't handle the truth".

Sighing loudly "I just want my family back, period".

"Delano, Gia is someone from what I see and from the way she talks. She is someone you can't force to do something. It may take time for her to come around".

"Just like when she was pregnant the first time. It took time for her to open up to me. We been through so much, so much".

"Whenever she comes back and is willing to talk just call me. We can finish this and solve the major issue here. Thank you for wanting to talk" Jane smiled.

"Thank you, Jane and I will" closing be laptop and walking to find Gia. I heard sniffling... I see her crying on the couch. Sitting next to her "what's wrong?".

"She doesn't know anything about us. But she wants to diagnose me as a narcissist?!. I'm far from that!" She was hysterically crying it felt like she was having a mental breakdown. "Empathy?! Really?!. Yes, I'm guilty for being affectionate so much with you. But Ryan, I'm always affectionate with him. Always!. Then I have this anxiety of you cheating on me again. That maybe one day you will find someone better. Who can be better for you. Instead of me".

Sitting there just letting her breakdown to me. This is what I wanted...

"My mom fucked me up! I know this. But what can I do? Nothing the damage has been done. I'm trying to be a good mom to Ryan! A mom I never got!. You don't even understand every day I wonder if I'm doing my best with him. I question myself all the damn time!. Why am I even telling you this you would never understand!. It's like I left one controlling person to be with another one. I think in some way you know you can just manipulate me into doing what you wanted. You knew I was weak in the beginning" she got up wiping her tears and walked to the bedroom closing the door.