Secret Mistake

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GIA POV

As Delano was here trying to save our relationship my mind was somewhere else. He is a wonderful father to our kids. But us being together it's toxic. Staring at the ring I left in Nevada but Delano brought it with him in hopes I would put it back on.

Feeling no need to. How can I be with someone who I don't know if I truly love them?. My dad gave me some good advice. But I don't want to be in this relationship and then I never grow to love Delano. I would be wasting my time.

"Hey" Delano said. Turning to look at him "hey".

"Your dad wanted to know if you're coming out? He ha the sprinklers out for ryan" he said. I nodded "yeah let me just finish getting ready". He smiled "okay".

Taking in a deep breath I put my hair up and walked out to the backyard. Ryan was enjoying the sprinklers. Delano patted the chair next to him. Taking a seat and just paying attention to Ryan while my mind went all over the place.

"So Delano... are you and Gia leaving together?" My dad asked.

He turned to me "Hopefully. She knows I'll fight for her".

"That's what I like to hear" my dad said. Faking a smile I just didn't even agree. "Mommy look at what I can do!!" Ryan yelled. Seeing him do a trick in the water I smiled "wow that's so cool".

Feeling Delano's eyes on me. He knew something was wrong.

When we call came inside to Ryan could take a much needed nap along with his brother. I closed the door and bumped into Delano. "Can we talk?".

I nodded "okay". Going into an empty room Delano closed the door and looked at me "What's wrong?".

"What are you talking about?" I asked.

"You aren't acting like yourself. Is it something I did?" He asked.

"No, its just me. Honestly I'm just rethinking everything" I said. He seemed a little worried "about what?".

"Us" I said.

"What's the problem?" He asked.

"You May love me or so you think. But I can't say the same. And I don't want to waste your time in this relationship and I never grow to love you. That wouldn't be fair for you. When you can find someone else who can give you that" I said.

"Gia don't do this. We have children to worry about and never mind another one on the way" he said.

"Oh about that. False alarm. I got my period last night" I said.

He didn't say anything. He just paced around the room.

"I don't want to keep fighting about the same thing. Every time I have a feeling you always down play it or just ignore it. And right now I think it'll be best if we just separate" I said.

"Separate?" He asked.

"Yeah Meaning we are no longer together. If three years down the line we happen to get together and it works then fine" I said.

He stopped pacing and just looked at me "is that really what you want?".

I nodded "I think that be the best thing to do. You can see the kids whenever you want. But us together it was getting a little too toxic".

Delano looked as if he was about to cry. He rubbed his chin and looked as if he wanted to say something. But instead he shook his head "I'm sorry. But in the long run you'll see what I'm talking about".

"Are you coming back to Nevada or staying here?" He asked.

"I rather stay here in Arizona. I'll be closer to family then going back to Nevada" I said.

"Gia I will always love you. I know in my heart we belong together. Despite the hurdles we had to get over it made us stronger. It'll be hard to not see you everyday. Can't believe this is actually happening!".

"It's not you. It's me. I would hate myself if I wasted your time for many many years when you could be with someone else who could love you the way you want" I said.

"I guess when I go back I'll send your things here" he said.

"Thank you" I said. The awkwardness in the room was making me very nervous. Delano stood there just staring at me. "Are we done here?" I asked. He nodded "I guess so. I'm going to miss you, Gia".

Picking up the ring and handing it to him "give this to someone who deserves it". Opening the door I stormed out. I didn't want to cry in front of him. That would just give him an excuse to try and comfort me.

Checking up on the boys they were knocked out. My dad was walking by me "Are you okay?".

Shaking my head "No. I just broke up with Delano"

"What? You both seemed okay outside before" he said.

"That was just a mask. I don't love him the way he wants. Why string him along when he can find someone else?".

"I hope you're doing the right thing gia. And you aren't acting based on emotion" he said.

"This is the best thing for the both of us. He may not see it but I do. In the end we will both be happier. He can see the kids whenever he wants" I said.

My dad hugged me which led me to release all emotions through a cry on his chest. All the backed up emotions I've been holding on to was coming out.

This will be the best thing... 

The best thing...

THE END.

BOOK TWO WILL BE UP LATER ON TODAY!