A MAN'S SORROW CUTS DEEPER

In search for the inner self...

The place of comfort brings forth two sides of life. One side, the safe side, offers safety, peace of mind, and a sense of accomplishment for what already passed. Then there is the other side - the side of comfort zones meant to be stepped over, crushed, and overcome. Those brave enough to accomplish this often impossible feat understand that the victory is worth every effort and painful sacrifice...

Can sat in silence of the mid summer night's breeze, and searched within his heart for answers to questions he never bothered of asking himself before. He was a man confident in his actions. A man fulfilled by his art. Yet he was empty inside, yearning for a place where he could belong. Meeting Sanem and loosing Sanem forced him to admit that he no longer was able to go through life alone. Sanem's love proved no small mountain to climb though. She was unpredictable, completely unforseeable, and unsurpassedly undescribable. Even if he searched in all of the books in the world, he would not find a character even remotely close to to who she was. That is why he found it so important to read and understand her own book.

Sanem's book was about them, but it also represented a window to her soul. It offered a glimpse of who she was inside. And she was beautiful. The words in her book told a story of love, and a story of search. A story of what waited on the other side of the comfort zone. And what waited on that other side of the wall Sanem built around her heart was love. But he would need to discover the key to breaking through that comfort zone first...

The fragnant air of the night filled Can with a sense of hope. To think that they admitted to each other that they still held onto the items that meant so much calmed Can down. He used to be a man that set a goal and accomplished it not only at fast speed, but with only his interest at heart. Now his interest did not matter. What mattered was Sanem and their future together. She held onto his ring. The ring created by his own hands. It held within itself the very essence of his love for her. And to realize that for every day that he was away and he clung to her bandana, she had clung to that ring and the memory of them. He understood that he would need to search for courage and speak with Sanem about the pain she went through when he was away. He hoped with his heart that that ring offered her even the slightest glimpse of comfort whenever she needed it most. That it not only reminded her of the pain they cause each other, but it also brought back the feeling of love he felt for her...

He searched for the memories that warmed his heart. He searched for memories that may one day become those happy ones that they would remember and tell to their children. The day they had met, for the first time and the next. The days she made tea for him. When they got lost in the forest in Agua and he realized how beautiful her eyes were when they looked at each other from accross the wildflower bush. When she took his breath away walking down the staircase in the stunning pink gown at Fabri's party. When she called him the bad king and let her guard down when they danced for the very first time in their life. And every next dance they shared. When they admitted to each other the day of the shoot, that perhaps it may be better if they stayed alone together going forward. When they fell in love each step of the way...

The search within his heart led him through all those painful memories as well. All those days when Aylin whecked havock in their lives, with and without Fabri's vile claws reaching over to possess Sanem's perfume and Sanem herself. All those painful moments ever since Yigit appeared in their lives. Even the times when Hüma failed to recognize Sanem as his one and only love. Yet the search through all those painful moments made him realize one thing. Though the villains changed, the invisible thread of their deep love for each other never broke. If it were possible, Can felt that the thread kept getting stronger...

Reading Sanem's book made Can realize that their love demanded the best version of themselves. The love that they shared was truly a powerful one. And he realized that they each first fell in love with the person they were on the inside, and then with who they saw in each other. And though life found cruel ways to try to keep them apart, the stars in their skies kept finding ways to steer their hearts back in their direcrion. They would just need to search deep within themselves and finally admit that when it came to love, there was no such thing as a comfort zone, for it was in the undescribable way love surprised them each day that they kept falling more and more in love with each other...