A MAN'S SORROW CUTS DEEPER

Meant to be...

How does one welcome love back in their heart? True love, never lost, that filled the heart completely. Even if the one that held the heart was not by their side, that love never faded. This was everso true for Sanem Aydin and her Can Divit. Love meant for the storybooks, love for the ages. And they both knew it...

Sanem Aydin was a young soul when she met Can Divit. As much as she was pure and innocent, he was confident and reserved. She had a heart open to all of the world, he closed his to the world that surrounded him. The love and support she received from her family enabled her to believe she could do anything she put her heart into. The pain of lost love from his mother made him believe there would never be anyone out there who would make him believe in love. And yet, they met. And they fell in love with a love no words could describe, no words ever could...

Sitting in her garden and letting her heart speak, Sanem poured her soul into her new book. All that had already happened was encompassed in her first book. Her love for a man so out of her reach that their love still felt like a fairytale. More than that. The book ended on a happy note, with a vision of them becoming a family. In real life, though, that one wish she held so very dear to her heart kept slipping away from her. She loved Can, more than her own life. She begged and pleaded with the stars in the sky, the princesses in the sea, and all other virtues of nature to let them be together. He was back in her life. And for that she would forever be grateful, because seeing him felt like getting air in her lungs back.

But her heart did not yet feel complete. He had her heart, but did she have his? That thought felt so heavy, she could hardy bare it. He returned and stayed. He admitted he would never leave. And he repeated those words with honest conviction. Yet he still held his love back. And this hurt her too. She brought his boat back. Gave it back to him. But instead of accepting it with a wholehearted EVET, he simply replied he could not accept it. The blow of that silent no hurt her to her core. The pain of rejection stung her deep within, for he wasn't rejecting the boat, he was rejecting the freedom she offered. She swore to herself she would let him be free. Free to come back, and free to let go. She would no longer want him to not go. She would let him be who he was meant to be. A man of free will, the one she fell in love with.

He came to her, and her soul lit from within. Just looking at her, he knew she still loved him. And she too knew they did not need any words. He accepted her offer, and the freedom to love. They both loved freely, loved beyond all they ever felt. Truly no words were needed, for they both were all words to each other. A simple touch was enough. A simple kiss filled them with that love completely. They held on to each other, so full of hope. That sweet embrace released all the worry and sorrow. The past year nade them realize what life without love meant. And how numb they both felt without each other. They said their appologies in the past. They also admitted they still held onto the one thing of each other that let them survive. The time finally came for their hearts to come clean and reveal how much they meant to each other.

He told her he accepted the boat because she could see how much he loved her. Those simple few words were so much more than she needed to forget the past year. She felt so lonely and so out of air thinking he left her and gave up on their love. And now he was back, and she finally understood his heart never left, it stayed here with her. Stayed with her always. Feeling this way made her believe. Believe in their future, believe in their love. She knew it wouldn't be easy. What love ever was? But knowing his heart was right there with hers, they would make it last. They were meant to be, and that was all that mattered...