Cynefin...(18+)

Ch. 5-Whats Next

Kya POV:

When I finally got home I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. My chest was heaving and I quickly jumped into the shower. Letting the water run over my face as I went deeper into my thoughts.

These past couple of days have been something else. I can't say that I'm the most inexperienced with men. Like I said I'm adventurous and I like trying new things.

But I'm not one to form feelings or let myself fall for someone. Everyone has the heartbreak that broke them. I let it control me for a long time. But I'll quote from my favorite Disney movie,

"The past can hurt, but you can either run from it or learn from it."

And I decided that I was done running and I can honestly say it helps me every day.

Just thinking about the fact that I'm forming feelings for not just one but all seven of them makes my body break out in a sweat.

They are all so different and found myself enjoying their differences. But already knowing there would be no way I could just pick one. The thought of doing that made my heart cold.

Thinking of having to turn any one of them away made tears come to my eyes.

I started my thinking of Jungkook, the cute guy from the café. He gave off an aura that was comforting. He was sweet, polite and patient. I wouldn't mind getting to know him as more than the cutie at the café.

Then there's Jimin and Hobi, those two strikes a new nerve. They make me feel like a complete woman when I dance. Sure I've only danced with Jimin once but that one time left me seeing stars. I'm used to dancing with Hobi and I've helped him teach classes in many cases. One time after class I and Hobi stayed late to work on the dance for the next class, and we ended up getting close and I kissed him. He didn't hesitate to kiss me back, but we never talked about it after. And I didn't want to ruin our relationship by bringing it back up.

Then there was Jin and Namjoon. I couldn't even imagine that I would have made it this far without them. Jin has never said much but I didn't need him to say anything for me to understand him. What he didn't speak you could see in his eyes. Every emotion would flow through them like a storm that I would happily be swallowed it. Namjoon was something else. Over the years he was subtle about how he felt about me. But Namjoon, like myself, didn't do relationships. I remember much time when I would hear him talking to Jin about a girl who something that happened between them. But that never stops me from forming feelings for him. If anything it made the pull stronger but there was no way I was going to let that be known.

Next is Taehyung, my personal Picasso. He had me captivated by finding beauty in small things. The fact that he was able to create such beautiful scenery and make the image look so incredible had given me a small glance into his amazing mind.

And finally Yoongi, he made me feel confident. I wouldn't usually do around suggesting sex toys to random men, but I assumed it would be right to return the favor. Thinking about the clamps I had told him to buy made me smile knowing I have the same ones in the bottom drawer of my dresser.

I finally stepped out of the shower and started to lather my body with lotion and oil. I threw my hair up in a clip and put in a tank top and shorts. I grabbed an apple from the table and went to lay on the couch.

I flopped on the couch and grabbed my phone from the side table. I see a text from Jungkook making me smile before I open it.

Jungkook: Hello beautiful, I hope you had a good day and call me when you get the chance I'd love to hear your voice.