Wake Me Up

Finale

I had a dream .. and you loved me there. I got you there. We are happy in my dreams. And that's all I wanted.

Maybe you don't care.

Maybe you care no more.

But I'm not sure .. it might have been a nightmare. Because you didn't notice me. When I tried to fly to catch you, you're not even there .. until I lost you. I want to believe that I lost you than thinking that you're hiding from me.

Because if I truly lost you, I can find you again, I can take you back whenever I want. But if it's you who want the distance, then I won't be able to move.

I've been dreaming of you .. you were so in love with me. But when I wake up, you were not there. I screamed, a loud scream, but you said to me it was just a dream and you are leaving ..

I cried 'cause I am already drowning by you. I can't breath without you. I can't move without you. I can't live without you. My life is dull without you ..

But how could my life be if I didn't dream of you?

"Hey .. do you want to run away from reality once again .. with me?"

I stared at him in disbelief. But a smile played in my lips.

"To where ..?"

He stretched his arm and held my hand.

"To the dream we wished to be .. let's make it all real." He gave me a sweet smile before pulling me next to him.

We are about to walk outside when I saw my family watching us from the back of the door. They are all smiled and teasing.

"Tita .. Tito, pwede ko po bang hiramin sandali ang anak niyo?"

I almost laugh when I heard him stammered, maybe because his a little bit nervous and uncomfortable.

"Merry Christmas .." napangiti ako sa naging tugon ni Papa.

Lumapit ako sa kanila at mahigpit silang niyakap.

"Merry Christmas, Ma .. Pa!" Tears fell again but right now it's because of joy not sorrow or sadness ..

I can feel my heart at eased and contented. A lot of things happened. Hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang beses na akong umiyak. Naranasan kong mabuhay sa takot at pangamba hanggang sa sumuko na ako at naging duwag na lumaban.

Akala ko dati kapag iniwasan ko ang problema bigla na lang iyong maglalaho. Akala ko mawawala na lang iyong parang bula. Akala ko makakalimutan ko ang problema, ang lungkot, at ang takot kapag binalewala ko. Pero nagkamali ako. Dahil nang magpasya akong iwasan at kalimutan ang problema lalo lang iyong lumala at lumago hanggang sa unti-unti ako nitong nilalamon.

Pero hindi ko masisisi ang aking sarili kung naisip kung sumuko dahil sa mga oras na pinili kong lumaban ilang beses akong nadapa, at ilang beses ding nasaktan.

Sino nga ba ang kakapit sa katotohanang isang panaginip ka lang?

"It seemed impossible, was it?' he asked.

Andito kami sa isang mataas na lugar na parang sa pelikula ko lang nakikita. Overseeing the city, it made me realized how big it is. And so the world. So, how could I met him in this vast horizon of reality?

Ala-una na ng madaling-araw pero may mga fireworks pa din na lumiliwanag sa kalangitan. Para iyong mga bituin na kumikislap sa taas. Napakasayang pagmasdan ng mga iyon na para bang isa lang itong panaginip.

"Nanaginip lang ba ako?" Hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako makapaniwalang totoo ang lahat ng ito.

Masuyo akong tiningnan ni Samuel at saka ngumiti ng ubod tamis. Hinawakan niya ang aking kamay paulit-ulit na pinisil iyon.