Nanny Dearest

Chapter Sixty Four Swallow Your Pride

"Did you take a longer route?" I asked Ruslan as I finally started to recognize the road we was almost home.

"Yes, I did." He said with a smile on his face and I tilt my head and nodding it. He stallings but that's fine, I'm getting a little sleepy anyway. 

The rest of the ride was silent but it was comfortable I looked by my peripheral vision seeing his eyes focus on the road they looked glassy thought. He must be overthinking hard. One hand griping the steering wheel his knuckles was turning more white than what his usual completion is as the other was stroking his beard deep in thought. I reached my hand tapping his arm.

"Yes love?" His eyes glance at me then back at the road.

"Gimme your hand." I tap his arm again yawning as he entwine our hands together and I lightly squeeze it.

"You seem tired." He pointed out the obvious and I smile.

"Highly, I enjoyed myself tonight. We've been working so hard, I mean I just own a restaurant but still it's nice to get away and spend quality time together." I let out a small giggle because I'm just happy. I got a soft smile from him in return.

Once we the gate came in view I let got of his hand adjusting the seat back. As he pulled the keys out, we sat in silence for a little while before I opened the car door first. 

"Go head to room, I'll meet you there. I have a gut feeling that they let Makar tear down the house." I said as we both got out the car closing the door and linking our arms together walking up the porch. 

"He's with two aunts who barely gives a fuck, you don't need help cleaning up?" He asked me and unlocking the door having the two of us walk inside being greeted with a loud TV we look around the entryway checking for anything out the ordinary. We gave each other a peck on the lips before going our separate ways.

Walking down the hall going into the living room I saw what I expected. Toys all over the floor and three people knock out on the couch. Anastassia was laying down with her neck awkwardly in the corner of the couch with one leg on the couch and the other hanging. Lyanna was knock out too but on the other side of the couch head leaning back mouth open snoring one arm hanging off and the other over her forehead. Makar was laying on her with the tv remote in hand and a nerf gun in the other. He was stretched out and had one of his feet on Anastassia face as the other hang. 

I held in my laugh seeing how cute this was, I looked at the tv seeing … south park playing. I shake my head and started to tidy up the living room. Picking up the toys making sure not not to making noise while putting them away in the brown basket that had a top to it. Walking back over towards the three I carefully and slowly takes the tv remote out of Makar hands turning it down some.

How the fuck, nope I'm to tired to find out how or what channel she found that shit on.

After picking up the toys I grab the plates that was on the livingroom table walking out of there and heading to the kitchen to do the dishes. It took a few minutes but wasn't long after I was done I took my ass upstairs heading to our room. 

Opening the bedroom door I didn't see Ruslan. Setting foot in the bedroom I walk around looking for the tall viking looking man. I called his name peeking in the bathroom but didn't seem him so I instantly went from tired to panic. I left around room looking in different room looking for him and made my way to the room that I wasn't supposed to go in.

I came to the decision to knock on the door before slowly opening it seeing Ruslan back towards me as he stood there looking around. He wasn't out of his suit I mean beside his jacket he still has his shirt and dress pants on. I walked in slowly closing the door walking over standing beside him looking around. The room was all white untouched too, the only pop of color was the pastel green pillow that had the words love written on it in cursive with white as the written color.

"Such a nice room." I started up a conversation walking pass him heading to one of the dressers that had a picture of frame of Franiszka, Makar and Ruslan.

"I haven't touched this room since the day she died." He said, it was hard to figure out his tone as I heard his footsteps easy over, refusing to stay in the negative. I smiled turning towards him.

"She was so pretty, what did yall do in this picture?" I asked him point at the picture and he looked confused but then at the frame as a smile slowly grew.

"That was Makar first time at the zoo, We thought it would be better for him to learn animals that was for some reason. He high fives a panda that day." He set the frame down and I pulled my phone out going on through my playlist while he walked around looking at a few things. Once I found a good song which was John Legend Ordinary people. I turned to face him a we both looked at each other. I reached for his hands holding them and he let me holding mine. 

"Being vulnerable is not easy for me." He said as I kept my warm smile on my face nodding my head.

"I know lovie, being vulnerable is never easy." I told him as I guide us to the bed putting my phone on full volume. We lay down on top of the covers holding one another, Ruslan rest his head on my chest while my leg was on him. My hands massaging his head as the other cradle his face.

A few minutes past and then more feeling like a good fifteen minutes. I was starting to fall asleep zoning in and out until I felt his hold on me tighten and I opened my eyes slowly and shift my eyes down seeing my man letting a tear fall onto me. I recognized my chest was a little wet.

Oh he's been crying silently?

I started to massage his head again as I lay a kiss on his forehead. My heartbroke when his silent crys finally grew into sobs. I'm thankful that I put music on for his privacy, his crys was a pure sound of heart aches he grip onto me tight as I hummed to a song that was playing while I continue to kiss his forehead.

"I love you Ruslan." 

".... I love you to Marya."