Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 5 (TW)

SENSITIVE CONTENT OF SEXUAL ASSAULT AND HARASSMENT IF YOU DON'T FEEL COMFORTABLE READING WE UNDERSTAND 

 Flashback tw rape

The night was passing quickly we were all having so much fun we had a few drinks but nothing too extreme "Come on Sierra it's your turn." Ella called our "Ok fine." I said as I spun the bottle it went around and around and around then stopped on Jeremy "Well a games a game I suppose." I said as we both crawled to the middle and kissed each other then laughed pulling back we all laughed together once the game had ended we played more games like that and then we all stepped outside with some more drinks we all walked to the football pitch a secluded area for all of us when we got their Jeremy (one of my best friends since forever) lead me to underneath the seats and wrapped his arms around my waist I felt so giddy I'd just had my first kiss with him was he going to kiss me again? 

"Sierra you look so beautiful tonight." he told me I was wearing a blue dress which was cut just above the knee and he thought it looked beautiful on me "Thanks." I said blushing. Then he started moving his hands around my body.My blush faded and I felt as pale as a ghost. I tried with all my might to get him off me "okay Jer very funny lets go back to the others now"I rolled my eyes and tried to get out his grip once more "Jer I'm serious it's your party come on" but he wouldn't stop touching me . "Jeremy stop."

 I said "What's the matter baby? You don't like this." He said. "I don't like it you asshole." I said and turned to slap him but it was a bad choice. He pushed me to the wall. "That doesn't matter because I don't care." He said then pushed his body to mine. "Jeremy get off me!" I shouted but he didn't listen, he just kissed me. "Help!" I screamed but that just made him even more mad. He turned my around and pushed me to the wall and started unzipping my dress. I had tears streaming down my face. I could hear my friends laughing, they didn't even bother to help me. My dress fell to the floor so he turned me around again and started touching every part of my body. He quickly took off his own clothes and one thing led to another. I just remember a lot of hitting, the sounds of me crying, shouting, pleading for help and the sounds of my friends giggling. I felt kisses on my back my lungs were sore from screaming my eyes were dry I had bruises all on my body how did they not hear me screaming they were right there.I could see them.They were just giggling "See it wasn't that bad now was it." Jeremy said caressing my waist tears still streaming out of my eyes as he walked back to my friends like nothing happened, i was curled up in a ball under the bleachers and seats the dirt still on my sin I was just sat there, and they all left Ella was hesitant but she still left with them.

He came back and and...

Flashback over

"Summer he dressed me back after."

"You trusted them with everything Sierra and looked at what happened.." she said "I didn't think I could trust anyone after that happened. I'm trying my best to forget that and live a normal life in school. I will never let anyone know about what happened to me..." I said "From the call you were in earlier, he sounds a lot better than your old friends. I just wanted to remind you to always think before you do something. I don't want anything to happen to you." She said and gave me another hug. "I'm sorry for making you remember what happened again. I love you so much Sierra everyone does and we always will because we really care for you." She said "Thanks summer I'll be safe" I told her then changed into my pyjamas and fell asleep

 I had a dream that night the most amazing dream. I dreamt I was with my new friends and we were all just hanging at the Starbucks near us and then we all went home it was beautiful no peer pressure, no drinking , no silly games and he wasn't in sight .Then my alarm woke me up.