Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 17

Then I went to the door where he was waiting. "Ready?" He asked and I nodded my head. I kept my mouth shut so that I won't say anything like what I said earlier. We walked to his house in silence. We arrived at his house so I sat on the couch in his living room waiting for his explanation. I sat there for a second trying to figure out what was happening in his brain the project was due in four weeks and we'd only practiced the song three times but I needed an answer first "Ramin why were you and Tam fighting?" I asked "god you might completely disown me I don't know if it's too soon or to fast to tell you but me and Tam we got into that fight because because it's because I. I" he sat down next to me on the sofa and held my hand "Sierra you're a really amazing girl and everything and me and Tam both feel like there's something between us and you individually I know it's only been like a few months but I think I think that I" he stated I cut him off "I think I love you" I said then covered my mouth with my hands "Never mind, I'm sorry. forget I said that. blah blah blah blah that did not happen." I said shutting my eyes. "I think I do too." He said which made me open my eyes and looked at him confused. "We're still friends right? You don't hate me or anything 'cause if you do please tell me now." I said. "Yep, we're still friends." He said. "Okay cool.." I said then let out a sigh. "Finally I can act normal." I said "What do you mean?" He asked. "I had to hate you for a week." He said then Laughed. "So should we practice or.."

"I guess we should practice but just be careful about um my waist and stuff." I said "Don't worry I will be." he said "Can we umm not do the kiss tonight I don't think I'm ready." I said and he nodded we sang through the song and it sounded perfect like our voices were made for each other "So you want to make the cookies now?" he asked "Damn right." I said as he lead me to the kitchen and got all the ingredients and measuring stuff out of the cupboards

"So what do I do?" He asked "Since I don't want to waste your ingredients you can mix and preheat the oven." I said. I placed all the ingredients in a bowl and let him mix it. "Gosh Ramin! Be careful we don't want to make your house dirty." I said as cookie dough was flying everywhere. We placed some dough on the tray and let it bake. While waiting he asked me a question. "Sierra, about earlier why did you think that I was a police officer?" He asked "Oh right it's it's nothing" I said "and what did you tell me what you were wearing?"

flashback

"Miss we need to know what you were wearing" the officer asked me "A blue dress just above the knee with a silver zipper at the back black heels and my hair was down."I told them shaking feeling what he had done "And did you fight it or simply just let it happen?"the other officer asked "I tried to get him off me with all my might I really did but he was too strong his grip was too strong." I said "And how tight was the dress?" another officer asked "I don't see what this has to do with it but I don't know fairly but not too I guess." I said biting my nails "I'm sorry miss but boys will be boys next time wear jeans." the officer said I felt like screaming at him I wanted to be heard but the case had been dropped

FLASHBACK OVER

"Sierra? " Ramin said I was crying again "it's nothing I don't wanna talk about it and the cookies will be done now anyways

"I'm sorry I keep crying in front of you." I said "it's okay Sierra." He said and the timer started beeping. "It's ready." I said as we went to get the cookies. "Wow these smell amazing" he said. "They do don't they?" I said then let out a short laugh. He was about to get one cookie. "Ramin, we still have to let them cool down you idiot." I said. "But I want to try one already." He said "If you want to get burned then sure." I said and we had this weird moment just looking at each other's eyes. I'd never noticed this before but his eyes were a golden brownie color and they sparkled a little too I felt my breath get heavier so I pulled my eyes away That was close I thought as we took the warm cookies into the living room and placed the plate they were on in the middle of the sofa "Sierra you know that thing you said earlier." he said I took a bit of a cookie they were perfect hard on the outside but soft on the inside "Yeah." I said blushing with a mouthful of cookie in my mouth " Did you really mean it? " he asked "I mean yeah but If you don't I feel the same I totally understand and we can go back to before." I said "What if I want to go forward with this new feeling?" he said "I don't think my parents would be happy to know because ever si-, they got more protective as soon as I got into high school." I said. "When I ask you about something you always say that your parents have a problem with it." He said. "I'm sorry, I don't know if I did something that's why they are like this." I said, so keeping my past a secret will be harder than I thought. "Sie what if you just don't tell them they let me round now that doesn't have to change it can just be our little secret." he said "I don't know Ramin are you a good secret keeper?" I asked "The best one you will ever find in the world." he said wiping cookie crumbs from my face "Well keeping one secret from them wouldn't hurt them I guess." I said and popped another cookie into my mouth In my head I wasn't really sure if I had made the right choice.

Yeah I like him sure, but what would my parents do if they found out. They would either let me go back to homeschool or ban me from seeing him. You thought it would have been okay since he met your parents. That was okay.. before. After the incident they basically watched my every single move. "Helloooo Sierra?" Ramin said, waving his hand in front of me. "I'm sorry, I think I forgot to do something. I just don't remember what it is." I said "Ramin I have to tell them they deserve to know they have helped me get through the, panic attacks the panic attacks it would be wrong for me not to tell them." I said "Okay Sie can we both tell them together I feel like they would be less hard on you if I were there." he said. And I nodded my head "I should probably get you home as well then." he said as we stepped outside it was freezing he gave me his sweater to wear home.