Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 10

Oh god not crowds. I didn't need crowds right now it would just make everything ten times worse. "Sierra!" they all called then walked over to me but thankfully didn't crowd me I saw Ramin gesture the they spread out a little "Sierra are you ok?" Tam asked "what happened" Mandy called "Can we help you?" Hadley said and I shook my head "Can you just give me some space please?" I asked as they all nodded and left all apart from one Ramin.

Can my mom please just arrive faster? I didn't want to talk to anyone. "Sierra, you're in your new school.. remember." He said. "All schools are the same, I should have stayed homeschooled." I said then my mom finally arrived. I opened the door to the car, "Mom can we please go now?" I begged. "Sierra I think it's rude to leave your friend behind Ramin do you want a lift home I'm sure it will be ok." my mom said I wanted to die in that moment "If it's ok with you guys.'' he asked my mom nodded and he took the backseat next to me "Sierra it's ok now your safe." he said as my breathing returned to normal but tears were still dripping from my eyes I swiftly wiped them away and returned to my normal self "Thanks Ramin I really don't deserve you." I said with a half hearted laugh and we approached his house 

"Thank you Mrs. Boggess for the ride Sierra call me I'll see you tomorrow." and he got out of the car

"What happened in school today?" My mom asked. "Um... I had another panic attack." I said "Oh no sweetie, what happened this time." She asked. "I was.. talking to Ramin and someone shoved me too him. I hate it! I wish I could just forget everything that happened." I said. "I'm so sorry that happened Sierra, it's not your fault that happened to you. Remember that." She said. "But now that I panicked in school they all probably think I'm crazy." I said "Well one certainly doesn't think that'' she said "what do you mean" I asked as she pulled up to our drive "Ramin stayed with you even after you asked all your friends to go and I heard your little conversation in the car" she told me "oh right but all the others mi-" she cut me off "I'm sure Ramin will explain that you had a panic attack they will think nothing of it." my mom was probably right it was nice that he stayed with me after though

Before we went home my mom suggested that we would take out food for tonight's dinner. After ordering we went to pick up my sisters. "Sierra, what are you doing here?" Summer asked. "Yeah, you're usually picked up the latest." Allegra said. "Did you?" Summer asked and I nodded my head. They both looked at me concerned and gave me a hug. "Thank you guys, I appreciate it." I said. 

We went home, ate dinner, and then after the second longest day of my life or rather that's what it felt like I left my family and had a restless nights sleep.