Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 87

"Sierra wait!" I heard from behind me but I ignored it and kept walking forward. Until I felt someone push my shoulders to face back. That's when I saw Ramin. I wasn't in a mood for another argument. Can't people just leave me alone. I turned back and started walking again. "Sierra please." I heard him again. What was he doing here why wouldn't he stop following me I had to go it's not right if I stay "I'm not in the mood for this" I couldn't even say his name if I looked at him for more than one second I'd let waterfalls loose from my eyes when he touched me it hurt why couldn't he understand that I didn't want to see him "Sierra five minutes please" he said still walking towards me "I'm sorry I can't listen to your lies again."

"Sierra just-" he said "Why are you even following me you're not supposed to be here." I said "Sierra can you please just listen." He begged. "I'm not gonna miss my flight again because of you." I said starting to speed up. I didn't have time for this. "3 minutes just 3 please." He said after he caught up with me. "2 minutes and I get to slap you." I said "Fine." He replied. "Start, don't waste my time." I said "Sierra "Sierra" he said "yes let me guess you love me and your sorry and you never meant for it to happen but she was just too pretty for you to keep it in your pants and every time it happened your regretted doing it but you couldn't help yourself could you?" I said sarcastically "now if you don't mind I have a flight to catch" I said "No I hate you and you ruined my life." He said. "I'm glad to hear about that." I said and continued walking. He snaked his arms on my waist.

 "I'm just kidding." He whispered "Get you filthy hands off me." I said and pushed him away. I continued walking but still heard his footsteps behind me. "Why can't you just leave me alone?" I asked him. "Oh I'm catching the same flight." He replied. "Very funny" I said as the line moved forward "I'm being serious" he whispered into my ear "you can't just follow me everywhere I go" I said as I got to the front of the queue and handed them my ticked and ramin his "you two are such a cute couple" the staff said "actually we're not he's a bit of a douche" I said as we both stepped on the plane "then why are your seat numbers together" she said which ignored and walked to my seat and he sat beside me "can't you just leave me alone" I asked "not until you hear me out" he said "I said two minutes and I get to slap you,go""That would be hard if we're sitting together for a whole plane ride." He said. "You're just wasting your time." I said "I love you more than her believe me. You see how she acts in class. She really tries to get my attention. But I ignore her, it's just that..'' he explained "Just what? I'm not good enough for you?" I asked "No, you are more than enough for me. It's just that it's just that" he had 100 seconds left so he might want to stop wasting then "it's just what" I said getting really really impatient.

 "It's just that when she came to me she kissed me and I kissed her back and she tasted good and I couldn't stop doing what I did because I didn't have your kisses it was best next thing going" he said "why couldn't you just wait and not sleep with some chick I hate with everything" I asked "because I got tired of waiting, but then I realised you are worth the wait Sierra." He said "You still kept sending me letters, which were all probably fake." I said "Those letters were real, I poured my whole heart into them." He said. "If you were tired of waiting for me you should have broken up with me not propose a few months later." I said looking away from him.

A solitary tear dropped down my eyes onto my cheeks and fell onto the window "Sierra" he said tuning my face to meet his and shuffling closer so I could feel his breath on my face "please you know I can't say no to this" I whispered as he put his hands on my face and cupped them "I know" he said I had to be strong but I couldn't I couldn't "please don't" I asked as we both move even more forward so our heads were touching I shut my eyes preventing more tears falling than needed his thumb stroked my cheek bone and tucked some hair behind my ear "I love you" he whispered "no" I stated "I love you" he whispered again our noses were touching "No! No! No!" I said and turned away. "You don't love me, you don't. You never did." I said and started shaking. "I love you and that's true." He said and turned me to face him. He started leaning in. No! I can't let this happen.

 I slapped his face and looked out the window.

 If only I could just jump out of this plane but that's impossible. The engine started and we took off I stared out the window and looked at all the white fluffy clouds and dreamed of how they would taste like different flavours or cotton candy and how if I jumped they'd catch me and I could just live their in peace all alone not bothering anybody "Sierra" he started , not again I was to close last time I couldn't fight it this time if he tried again "Sierra please look at me" he asked but I fixed my gaze on a pink cloud shaped like a broken heart I got my phone out and placed earphones on. I played the music to distract me from everything around me. "Sierra, why can't you just look at me." He asked so I played the music louder. I didn't want to hear anything but the music and my breathing. "Sierra" he said tapping my shoulder. He quickly placed his hand on my cheek and made me face him.

 Once I faced him he softly placed his lips on mine as he kissed me like I was air. We pulled away and I just looked at him with a tear straying from my eye and faced back the window. I was doing so good until he did that. Now he was all I could think about. Why why did I still love him how could I after everything he's done to me I still wanted to marry him after everything I still wanted him to hold me and tell me everything was going to be ok but I couldn't let him know that when he kissed me I forgot about everything he'd done it all just seemed to vanish into the cold night air as I stared out the window all I could think about was how soft the kiss was and just him everything about him Once we were allowed to remove our seatbelts. I took the opportunity to go to the restroom but first I had to pass through him.