Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 42

I woke up earlier and remembered what happened last night. I changed into jeans, his shirt and my hoodie to cover it. I wiped the smile off my face then went downstairs where everyone else was eating breakfast. "Good morning family." I said and they all waved. I sat down on my chair and ate my share of the food then went back up to gather my stuff and write a note for Ramin and shoved it in my bag. I went to my mom and dad to ask them a question. "Mom. Dad. How long will it be until I can see Ramin?" I asked innocently. 

They both looked at each other and my dad decided to speak up on the matter "I think that for- (my mom stood on his foot)three more weeks then you can see him but only on weekends and your curfew is 10 now" he said sternly I was so happy only three more weeks I quickly added to the bottom of the letter for him to come and see me tonight it was risky but worth it I thought as my mom drove me to school I walked to my locker and saw Ramin was already there. "3 more weeks." I whispered then kissed his cheek quickly so that nobody could see and walked to my class. But now I don't cry knowing I'd be allowed to see him soon. I was still bored but ever since we've been banned from seeing each other I've been taking notes since there is nothing else I could do. I went to my next class then went to the cafeteria with Mandy. I told her that I'd finally be able to be with him again in three weeks. She was excited that we would be able to eat all together again. 

I went to my next class then too musical theatre. I was with Hadley and he said that Ramin was starting to be happy again which made me smile. As soon as class ended I went home. I did my homework, studied, ate dinner then took a shower. This was the happiest I have been sing my parents had punished us I was risking everything be letting come over tonight but I needed his touch I craved it I'd never craved something as much before and the fact we would see eachother gave me a huge adrenaline rush so that night I stayed up with my window open and waited for him and he finally came

"Hey ram!" I said biting my lip. "Hi Sie" he said then looked at me noticing I was wearing his jumper. "What's with that?" He asked "with what?" I asked innocently. "Ohh.. you want to?" He asked and I nodded my head. "I'm sorry Sie, but not now. Not when our parents are mad at us." He said. "Why?" I asked him placing my hand on his chest. "We don't want to get in even more trouble that would probably make us not see each other longer." He said he did have a point though. "But I don't know if I can wait three more weeks." I said "It will be worth it, I promise you." He said with a smile. "I'll hold you to that karimloo'' I said ugggh I just wanted him so much so badly and three more weeks that's a kind time "are you sure we can't just do it now" I asked wrapping my hands around his neck pulling myself closer to him "sie like you said the walls are like paper I don't want to not see you again for another six weeks'' he told me wrapping his arms around my waist pulling me closer so I could hear his breaths slow and controlled "Maybe just one kiss.." I said and he smiled.

 He kissed me softly which made my legs go weak. We pulled away after a while with smiles on our faces. "We only have 2 minutes left." I said. "2 minutes?" He asked and I nodded my head. "So that we won't get in trouble." I said "oh yeah.. so what can we do in two minutes?" He asked. "What do you want to? Ohhh I forgot to give this back to you earlier." I said handing him the shirt he gave yesterday. "Ahh thank you I'll be sure to have one item of clothing washed and prepared in our locker by tomorrow afternoon" he said which made me giggle and smile "oh and ummm ram" I said we have about ninety seconds of time together left "yeah sie" he asked "I know we missed our nine month anniversary because of our parents so I hope this isn't to late" I said handing him a bag "sie your shouldn't have" he said "I wanted to" I said "okay then I want to do this" he said pulling me in by the waist and giving me another one of those kisses that were soft and made my knees go weak "I need to learn how to do that" I said as we pulled apart "You're already good just the way you are." He said then smiled. "So I guess I'll look at you tomorrow." I said which made him laugh. "I'll look at you tomorrow" he said "I love you." He added. "I love you too." I replied then he slowly and carefully climbed out from my window. I watched him walk away from my house. He turned around and blew me a kiss so I did the same. I planned that if someone catches me awake I'd pretend I was studying for an algebra test because it's math and it takes time to study. "Sierra?" I heard my mom call so I went to my desk and started answering a math problem. She went in the door. "What are you doing?" She asked. "Studying for an algebra test." I said which was actually true. "Okay but don't sleep too late." She said and I nodded my head. "Good night mom love you." I said which made her smile. "I love you too honey." She replied then went out my door.

 That man left me wanting more every time and knowing that we'd be back together in three weeks was the only thing keeping me going at the minuet his kisses stayed with me on my lips his his hands burned whenever I touched where he once did and the bruises once had had faded now I had no reminder apart from the memory of how bliss it was but enough thinking we'd almost made it I thought getting back into the sheets and drifting off to sleep in that thought