Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 24

I woke up the next morning the kiss still fresh in my mind I smile thinking about it it made me feel fuzzy and nice I walked downstairs with that same smile on my face "morning" I sighed placing my cheek on my hand still smiling "someone's happy about something" my mom said and my sisters giggled "hmm" was the noise that came out of my mouth when my mom handed me breakfast "it couldn't have anything to do with ramin could it ?" She questioned "you told her !""No we did not." Allegra said sarcastically. "Does dad know?" I asked. Of course my dad decided that it was the right time to enter. "Does dad know what?" He asked 

"That you kissed Ramin?" He said in a teasing tone so I gasped and looked at everyone. I was a bit offended that this happened. I did not give them permission to tell our parents. "I never have privacy in this house." I said "How do you all know" I asked "You told me and summer and summer told mom" Allegra said "snitch" summer did "but who told dad" I asked "you" they all said "what when" I asked "approximately ten seconds ago" mom said shoot I'm never gonna be able to see him ever again now I'm gonna be Locked up in my room and... I'm gonna be late for school so I gathered all my stuff and got changed into a floral dress and head out "bye family" I said and I walked to school

As I was walking I tried to remember the conversation we had. I just asked 'does dad know' then my dad replied saying about me kissing Ramin. Well they did not lecture me so I think they are okay with it. Right? I arrived near my locker still deep in thought. I did not mind my surroundings. My mind also travelled back to the kiss. It felt good. I mean- yeah. It felt good but my whole family knew well what they didn't know was that I kissed him first which I was quite glad about because I'd definitely get lectured about that definitely I thought getting somethings out of my locker I finished and the locker door slammed shut it was tam "hey" I said "you kissed him?" He said rather aggressively i stayed silent "you kissed him" his tone frightened me he had me pinned up against a locker hands on either side of me his knuckles probably going white from the shade of red his face was "you kissed him" his voice was loud and echoed through the hallways why was he being like this I made myself small putting my hands to my chest and looking at the floor then I heard footsteps "why did you kiss him Sierra" tam stated moving closer to me there was nothing I could do the footsteps got closer.

 "Back off" I heard a comforting voice say Before he could say another word. Tam got closer to me and grabbed my face with his hands painfully "tam your hurting me" I whispered not wanting to make him any angrier "I can hurt you more than you know and him" he roared and then aggressively kissed me. It felt like the one from the incident . 

I hated it it made tears drip down my eyes and I felt like screaming for help but I couldn't because his murderous lips were plastered on mine removing the feeling of rains id kept from last night. Suddenly, Ramin pushed him away from me. I took deep breaths, I thought he was okay with me and Ramin. He kept insisting that he was okay with us and that he was with Mandy. So why did he do that.

Why did he do that my mind immediately took me back to that awful awful memory I saw it replaying in my mind again how he punched me and beat me and shoved me to the floor how I couldn't get up how the case was dropped because he was a football player how his lips felt on mine made me want to vomit I felt the stream of tears fall down my face I could hear what ramin was saying to him "you idiot why can't you just let her be" he said "because I want her and I didn't get her" tam said "do you know how much damage you have just created she was doing so well" Ramin told him "I don't care she's hot and sexy and well she's not had experience " I heard tam say "that's why!? you don't understand what she's been through she gets panic attacks and cries tam and you just want her as a bit on the side that's disgusting get out of my face before I hurt you" he shouted "and what happens if I don't" tam spat I heard a noise like a punch "that happens don't you ever go near her again" he said " is that supposed to be a threat?"

Was what I last heard before I was pulled away by Hadley and Mandy. "What happened?" Mandy asked. Hadley whispered to her what happened. "Oh my gosh Sierra." She said then gave me a hug. I surprisingly didn't get a panic attack but tears just streamed from my eyes. "Are you okay?" Hadley asked. "I think so." I replied softly. "I just don't like them fighting especially in school." I said. "I'm gonna try and stop it." I added wiping my tears I knew I could stop it. "I don't think that's a good idea Sierra." Hadley said and Mandy nodded in agreement. "Why? I'm the cause of the problem I should at least try to end it.." I said "Sierra" they said before I walked off to find them they were right their near my locker I walked right up to them and the stopped their movements I check on Ramin first

 But as soon as I turned around I felt two arms around my waist drag me into their body and press against mine the tears streamed quickly with more fear than I've ever felt before "what's wrong Sierra I thought you liked being held" tam said as I squirmed to get out of his grip "what's the matter scared I might kiss you again" he said and turned me to face him I was petrified these things never ended well he moved closer to me and I could feel his breath on my face I screamed as his hands moved on me and ramin grabbed my free wrist but tam had more control over me as he turned me and kissed me again I struggled to get out of his grip I felt Ramin pulling me away with all his might but he was too strong "tam you son of a bitch" Ramin moved me away then looked at me apologetically before knocking him out cold The students around us were scared so they just went directly to their classrooms. I stood there just as I thought I wouldn't have a panic attack. This time was different. I had a hard time breathing, my heart was beating faster than it should, I was starting to get dizzy and my vision was blurry. Next thing you know I passed out.

 Why did it have to happen a second time? The first time was already bad. Why didn't I do what my gut said? Stay homeschooled ,I kept telling myself, but of course I thought transferring would mean I would have a new start.