Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 52 (TW)

this chapter contains child and verbal abuse and sensitive topics you've been warned 

"Hold on, I need to pee!" I said "Okay but hurry up!" He said so I ran up to my room and quickly used the old foundation. Luckily I didn't need much since they were fading pretty fast. Once I was done in about 45 seconds I ran down and went downstairs. "You needed me?" I asked when I arrived in my parents room. "Yes, come here." My dad said so I got closer and sat beside him on the bed he was holding something that looked like an album. "What's this dad?" I asked him he looked up at me with a tear in his eye. Honestly I don't get my dad's emotions.

 "It's your baby pictures." He said, this is why he called me and told me to get my butt into their room. It's getting pretty annoying but he's my dad. we scanned through the pictures and I was a pretty cute child we sat and reminisced about the old times ''daddy was there another reason you called me up here" I asked and he nodded "yes there is Sierra I actually need to talk to you about something and your not going to like it" he said what was he going to do this time I already felt the tears well up in my eyes "Sierra I need you go to the washroom and take all your makeup off" he said "what why" I asked "just go" he said god ok Sierra it's fine you have your back up phone and your window and the fact that your too in love to care I thought while washing all the foundation off me and dried it and walked back into my parents room fearless "SIERRA MARJORY BOGGESS" oh god here it comes

"YOU DID IT AGAIN?" He said in disbelief. Honestly I didn't care anymore. I'm 18 and can probably move out but I don't know. "So what if I did it again?" I asked him I didn't know how those words even got out of my mouth. "Oh so you talk back now." He said and I resisted the urge to roll my eyes. "Did he do this to you?" He asked me and I shook my head. "We both did this so this is not just his fault but it's also mine." I said. "You really want to be sent away from him now." He asked "No. Honestly, I don't get the point of you doing this. You don't even know that after I was raped I thought that I wouldn't find anyone I could love.. "Sierra stop back talking me I am your father" he yelled "and I am defending the man that I love and what we do or did together" I said "if you talk back to ME one more time young lady" he said but I couldn't resist it their wasn't any other way I could get through to him "dad when I was raped three years ago I thought that I wouldn't find anyone I could love and that nobody could ever love me back and then I met ramin someone who when I first saw I knew he was a protective guy and he is he's a protector he defends me takes care of me he loves me daddy and I love him I didn't even know it was possible that some else could feel this strongly towards me he cuddles me when I'm scared and laughs with me when I'm happy what's so wrong about being a girl in love" I shouted at him I needed to get the point across "mark my words Sierra you are never going to see him again" he said "but daddy I love hi-" I said but was cut off "no Sierra you don't you think you love him" he defended

 "I LOVE H-" I couldn't even finish my sentence he just pushed me to the floor. I started sobbing on the floor. My mom barged in the room. "What the hell did you just do to Sierra?" She asked my dad. "She did it with Ramin again even though she doesn't love him." He said "I do love hi-" "Shut up Sierra!" He said. "Have you even seen the way they look at each other?" My mom tried to explain.

 "I don't care! They are never seeing each other again." My dad yelled which made me scream then run up to my room and locked myself in.

 "Sierra I wasn't finished with my conversation" my dad yelled through my door "well I am you have no idea how much pain you just caused me" I screamed in that pain it hurt it was gut wrenching "your not to see him again is that clear" he shouted "no maybe you should just hit me next time or just kill me that's what your already doing" I yelled back he swung open the door and angry fire burning in his eyes he took everything my necklace most of his hoodies his cologne bottle that was in my room the teddy he got me for five months the perfume he got me for three the no I wasn't going to let him have that "let go of it" he yelled and I just shook my head and pulled until I had it back in my grasp I hugged it and hid it underneath my bed whilst he stole add of his stuff out of my room I watched as he tossed it in the fire pit in the garden my heart breaking he came back upstairs "what do you want now" I yelled my eyes red from crying

"I just came to get your phone and tell you that you're now taking your exams here we just finished calling your school about this." He said "So I don't even get to explain myself to my boyfriend?" I asked. "Ex boyfriend, he's coming over today and you just stay in your room." He said "-bbuut dad.." I begged. "No, I'm not listening to you." He said. "I just had my birthday and you're doing this to me. Thanks a lot." I said and slammed the door in front of his face.

 I locked myself in, I checked the windows if I could go out. But they put metal there not allowing me to go out. I heard the door click open this was it this was my chance I unlocked my door and ran downstairs as if my life depended on it because it did I must have jumped the stairs but that didn't matter I ran up to him and jumped into his arms wrapping my legs and arms around him "ram I'm so sorry he took everything I couldn't stop him bu but I kept the photo album you have me he couldn't take it away it meant too much he forced me to tell him I don't wanna lose you you mean too much to me he stole everything your teddy your hoodies your scent and he lit them on fire and forced me to watch them burn baby I I'm so sorry" I weeped into his shoulders he just let my cry I was grateful for that he held onto me as if I was the most delicate thing in the world I love that about him I never wanted to let go "Sierra i TOLD you to wait UPSTAIRS'' my dad bellowed his voice shaking the whole house but I couldn't let go of ramin I couldn't do it My dad pulled me off him so I had to run to my room. I started sobbing in my room. Why did I leave him alone with my dad? I was scared of him but that was no reason to leave him. Once I got in my room I heard a click in my door so that means someone locked it. I ran to my door and tried to open it but it was really locked. I heard my dad shouting and Ramin trying to answer as politely as he can. 

I don't know how this would even end.