Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 69

I woke up with him not there anymore. Not like I needed him to be with me everywhere. I just wasn't used to it. I went out of the guest room and started wandering around the house to see what I could find. I found a small table and I saw an album. It was labelled baby pictures. I was scanning through the pages finding a lot of cute pictures of Ramin. "And what do you think you're doing?" I heard someone say behind me. "Looking through your adorable baby photos my sweet love is there something wrong with that dear'' I asked "no it's just that I'd rather go eat breakfast than look at some old baby pictures of myself that's all" he said and lead me to the kitchen where he had already made us smoothies again.

 I love it when he surprises me "what's this'' I asked pointing at it "ahhh I call it love potion because it's a pinky red colour" he said which had me interested why hadn't I though of names for all my smoothies "Is that supposed to make me fall in love with you?" I asked him. "I don't know I guess we will find out later." He said then winked at me. This may be harder than I thought it would "God! This is good!" I said "are you falling in love with me yet?" He asked me. "I think I was already in love with you before you even gave me the drink, don't you think?" I said then he started blushing. "Is the little Ramen blushing because of what I said... adorable." I said and tried to stifle a laugh. "Okay but is it working" he asked "ram I told you I don't need a 'love potion' because I'm already in love with you " I said "yes but if I do this how does it make you feel" he said moving his hands up and down my neck and collar bone " what do you feel when this happens sie tell me" he asked in a seductive tone.

  "Well my pulse gets higher I get warmer my heart ... starts ... beating... faster goosebumps appear on the area you touch and I'll lean my neck back to you can feel more .... skin" I said his breathing got heavier whilst I was talking trying to suppress my urges and natural instincts because it was too early in the morning for this "That was an interesting game." I said trying to remove the thought from my head. "What game?" He asked "I don't know maybe the one where.." I said then started lifting his shirt up and was about to touch his abs but immediately stopped myself. "Like that, but I think now is not the time for games." I said and started walking away.

That was close how does he do that to me every time every single time I react to him and I needed to learn how to stop but look at him he's so gorgeous and half of me just wants to eat him and the other half wants me to wait and let me see him break under my mercy of teasing him but I almost gave in to him again and he was only touching my neck he didn't even have to kiss me anymore he just had to do something and ask me something and I'd do it I'd just let him "Sierra what game were you on about'' he asked as he sat down in the living room Let the war begin. 

"Game? What game?" I asked as I got on his lap facing him. "The game you were talking about earlier." He said "Wait hold on let me think about it." I said then started playing with his hair. "Was it the one where..." I started placing my hand on his chest and slowly dragging it down to his abs. "How do I explain it..." I said and started occasionally bouncing on his lap as if I was thinking. "Hmmmm it's just so difficult to explain ram" I said moving closer to him on his lap "it's that game where you..." I said placing my hands back on the bottom of his stomach working their way back up to his hair "where you.." I said bouncing again then stopping when I finally felt the throb "oh it's useless I'll never remember" I said getting up off him and walking out of the living room into the library yes he has a library in the cabin I'd call that Sierra one ramin nil. I wasn't really in the mood to find a book so I went to the guest room and got the book my mom gave me and went to the library to read it there. "I see you've found the library." He said and I nodded my head. "It is one of the most quiet places here." He whispered. Don't let him win Sierra. "What are you reading?" He asked, placing a hand on my thigh. "Oh it's a book my mom gave me." I said and continued reading. "Can I see it?" He asked and I passed it to him. He was just basically having a staring contest with my book. "Hey Ram, yeah I actually want to read the book." I said so he passed it back.

 This was going well I hadn't given into him because I was reading my book my book that my mom gave me my book that I saw stand up my book that I saw stretching and his t shirt slightly lifting which showed me the hem of his jeans where his v line was no Sierra focus on the book not the boy I re composed myself and flicked the page over then I saw him sit down "hey what you reading there?" I asked "it's a little something called 50 shades of grey I don't know what happens but the blurb makes it sound fun" he whispered in my ear no Sierra you've stayed strong so far don't ruin this winning streak "Okay, cool. I've never read it so you probably should tell me about it once your done with the book." I said looking at the book which he only read ten pages of. "Yeah sure but I think that would take time." He said. "That's okay I'm in no rush anyways." I said then continued reading my book. "Sierra please?" He said which made me confused. "What? Are you okay?" I said placing the back of my hand on his forehead. "Ram you feel so cold are you ok do you need some heat packs a bowl of soup a warm washcloth " I said putting the book down and going closer to him "baby you need some rest you need to relax and calm down yeah?" I asked him he looked like he could use something. 

But I wasn't sure what "no Sie I'm doing ok but thanks for your concern" he said "oh ok I'm gonna return to my book now" I said as he got up and sat next to me and I started to read "Sierra why di-" he said but stopped himself midway. "Why did I what? What did I do? I knew I should have left my damn phone at home. Look at what you did Sierra." I said. "No no no I was just going to ask you something." He said. "Then ask ahead." I replied "Why did you ummm start reading that book?" He said trying to cool down " well my mom bought it for me and I got bored one day so I thought I might as well do it" I said "do what ?" He asked his eyes opening wide " start reading the book dummy what did you think I was on about " I said and started laughing