Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 53 (TW)

Physical and child abuse in this chapter if it makes you uncomfortable I would skip this chapter

I kept tugging on my door handle why wouldn't it just break I pulled and pulled and pulled with all my strength it wasn't working I kept trying I was angry I was up I was breaking the handle of the door I tugged one last time with all my love for him and the door flung open I couldn't wait anymore I once again ran down the stairs looking for him the living room door was shut and I heard shouting coming from it I ran to the door locked damn it I tugged on the handle but this door was newer there's no way it could break "Ramin i don't know if your in their but if you are don't listen to a word he says I said about you I love you with all my heart" I yelled through the door and my dad opened it I collapsed on the floor and saw ramin in the middle of the room crying he had a back eye and bruises my poor ramin I ran to him "baby I I'm so sorry" I said latching onto him checking his face for more bruises my hands ran across his skin making mine tingle "baby say something say something please"My dad grabbed me and stood me up.

 "This is what will happen if you ever see him again. So I think it would be better if you just stay in your room or else something worse may happen." He said I mouthed 'I'm sorry' to Ramin. My dad opened the door so I slowly walked to my room. I couldn't just leave him like that I hated seeing him in such pain and distress I stopped halfway to the stairs and just sat in the middle of the room and cried out for him I wanted to be wrapped in his arms safe and warm I could hear him struggling to get to the door.

 "Sierra go upstairs your only making it worse for him" he said but I couldn't move my boyfriend was in there he was trying to rescue me from this situation I needed to see his face or hold him one last time I couldn't here what they were saying but their tones were aggressive and harsh I just wanted my ramin back holding me kissing me hugging me the living room door burst open "Sierra I told you to-" I interrupted him. "Dad, you can lock me in my room or do anything that you want to me just don't do anything to Ramin.. please." I begged his expression did not change. "I'll think about it." Was his reply but now I couldn't go in the room since he was in front of the door. "Can I see him one last time?" I asked . "No." He said sternly. I used all my effort to push him away and opened the door. Ramin was still there but now he was on the floor. "Baby are you okay?" I asked but there was no reply. 

"Please just reply to me." Still nothing. "Ram ram please wake up" I said shaking him crying "baby please I can't lose you I love you" I said one of my tears dripped onto his eyes and made it flutter I was relieved "oh baby you're alive" I said pulling him up to hug me I sat in his embrace his hands were comforting and what I needed "ram I'm s ss sorry" I said laying him back down caressing his cheek and his back eye I leant down my heart racing I always got like this when we're were this close no matter how many months we'd been together I leant down and kissed him as if it was the very last time I'd be able to do so he sat up and kissed me back with the same amazingly love I had for him we pulled away and he held me "Sierra I suggest you leave now" my dad said gritting his teeth clenching his fists I looked ramin in the eyes and shook my head giving him Eskimo kisses and I held back onto him

"Send me away or something but don't hurt Ramin. Kill me if you want to. I don't care anymore." I said and my dad started moving closer to me. He grabbed my arm and started pulling me out the door. "I love him dad, why can't you let me be. I'm 18 for gods sake." I said but he ignored me. "DAD! Give me a valid reason on why you are doing this to me." I said but he didn't reply. "Ever since the incident happened you never had respect for me." I mumbled. "Excuse me?" He said.

 "You have no respect for me." I said he threw me into my room and locked me in.

 Now that the doorknob was gone there was no way to open it. My dad placed stuff in front of my door making it harder to escape. I couldn't go out the window he blocked it off and screwed it down their was nothing attached to my bathroom I was trapped inside my own house my love downstairs god knows what happening why was he so angry last time he got a little bit annoyed and didn't let me see him but now he was on a whole different level I pounded on the door but it was useless my mom was in the shower and my sisters were out I couldn't do anything I wanted to protect him from everything that's what he always did for me I wanted to do that for him I had tried and he saw I'd probably never be able to see his face again I sunk to the floor my back on the door as I cupped my face in my hands and just weeped