Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 65

I got to my door but I couldn't bring myself to go in not while he was downstairs with him I know what happened last time I didn't want it to happen again I teared up just thinking about it yet I still couldn't enter my room he was still in my house he was downstairs in my living room I pushed the door handle open and went in I got the box out of my pocket and opened it and I let out a gasp, it was a ring. It was a pretty big box so that was only one of the things there. There was a note with the ring. 'Hey Sie, this is probably the first one you will see but it's a promise ring. I promise that you will be back with me again and everything will be back to normal' after reading the note I kinda knew I needed privacy so I got in my room and looked at what was inside that box. I removed all the confetti from the box to see that there were a lot of candies and chocolates and on the side there was a jar and another note that said. 'If you're feeling down just get a piece of paper here and it will have one of our many amazing memories.' He was so sweet. I checked to see what else was in the box And it was a bottle of something I sprayed it it was his cologne and he left me a jumper and I couldn't stay up here anymore he was downstairs I didn't know what was happening to him I searched through the box some more and found another letter ' sie if you're reading this it means I've finally gotten to see you and kiss you and hug you and hold you if you're reading this I'm probably downstairs because your dad wanted to talk to me if you're reading it go downstairs now baby please save me he's gonna kill me baby I need you I love you let's run away together to somewhere new together I hate not being able to see you but go downstairs baby please I love you' without a second glance at the letter I ran downstairs he was still their and there was a lot of shouting

"What the hell da- sir! Oh God! I thought we talked about this. I kept on trying to kill myself but you kept on making me live. I told you if you wanted to hurt him, kill me instead. I have nothing to live for anyways. I'm not your daughter or their sister. Nobody cares if this bitch dies." I shouted which made him go away from Ramin and run from me. "You keep saying I'm a disgrace and a disappointment to this family. I've been wondering why you haven't killed me yet." I said "Sierra no-" Ramin tried to say "I don't give a fuck just kill me already." I shouted I had tears in my eyes he surged towards me with a punch to the temple a slap in the face I felt ramin try pull him off me he kicked me in the gut and clawed my stomach digging his nails in making me scream in pain Ramin threw him off me and punched him in the face I was curled up in a ball in the corner "boy you heard what she said she wants to be killed" my dad yelled but ramin didn't let him go.

 "no she doesn't she's just trying to protect me" he said and he ran over to me and got me in a choke hold I couldn't breathe I was almost out of it when he dropped me back down I gasped for air and my dad left the room satisfied and ram rushed toward me "baby are you how many times has that happened?" He asked being careful where he touched me trying not to hurt me "this week? Six but I deserve it" I said not looking at him "six this week what about this month?" He asked, holding my hand "thirty-two... I deserve it, don't worry." I said. "No you don't Sierra, you need to all be treated equally." He said. "No I don't, I deserve to die and everyone will finally be happy." I said, pulling my hands away from him. "Equality doesn't exist." I said. "Sierra, do you want to leave with me?" He asked but I didn't know what to do or say. "W what?" I asked "I should have done this when I first visited you all those weeks ago. Do you want to leave with me?" He said "i I I can't leave my mom" I said "Sie I'm sure she'd prefer you to be safe and feel loved than be terrified all the time baby so what do you say" he asked "yes" I said taking his hand "but I need to grab a few things first" I said and lead him up to my room I tipped all his letters into that giant box I put the photo album and his other Jumper in it along with some of my clothes deodorant makeup and stuff I sealed the box shut with his help but I had to tell my mom so I called her into my room "M mmom?" I called "Yes honey I'm outside your door." She replied then went in my room. "Why are you all packed up?" She asked me "I'm going with Ramin, he says it's safer if we go far from dad.." I explained. "I don't know Sierra.." she said "you can visit us.. I just don't feel comfortable with dad anymore." I said hoping she'd understand.

"Sierra are you sure this is the best decision" she asked "mom I know you don't want to lose me I don't want to lose you but I can't keep getting abused every day I can't it's too much I love you mom I really do but I can't live in this this hell hole anymore" I said squeezing ramins hand she sighed and wrapped me in a hug "go out your window not the front door I'm gonna miss you sweetheart your my little fighter I'll try visit when I can I'd go now before he gets out the shower I love you Sierra" she said and unlocked the window we pushed the box out first and it landed ok nothing seemed to break we quietly ran to Ramin's house.