Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 51

Why do you always have something against me and Ramin?" I asked him, he just shrugged. "You want to know why?" He asked he went out the living room for a second then came back. "Okay, close your eyes." He said so I did. Then he carefully placed it in my hands. "Dad what's this?" I asked him. "It's something similar I gave to Summer when she turned 18. Something you can carry around to remember us." He said. "Why remember you? We're almost anyways at home?" I asked him. "Because you're growing up, I just wanted you to know that I'm always here for you and I support you in everything that you do." He explained. "Dad!" I called tearing up and I gave him a hug. "Thank you so much, I love you dad." I said "But I still want you to take it off" he said he had just been so sweet giving me a piece of rose quartz to remind me of him .

"Dad I don't understand I will always remember you what's your deal with Ramin he's done nothing wrong he treats me like a princess he does the cutest little things for me I don't understand why you don't like us together you were fine with it at the start" I said raising my voice a little he walked closer to me "Sierra I TOLD you to take the necklace off" he yelled I was scared he never yelled at me before "give me one good reason too" I asked he wasn't listening he reached for it and yanked it off my neck leaving it shattered into pieces on the floor my neck hurt because he pulled it so hard but I was focused on trying to put it back together "you evil man" I sobbed  then went back up to my room.

 How could he be so cruel after separating us for weeks. I've been nothing but good to him so why is he doing this to me. I found super glue and tried to glue it all back together. I heard light knocks on my door then my mom came in. "I'm sorry about your dad Sierra." She started. "It's okay mom, it's not your fault." I said she came over to me and I frantically tried to piece it back together but it broke right in my hands and I sobbed on my desk "Sierra darling it's just a necklace we can buy a new one" she said rubbing my back "it's not the same mom he bought it for me he put it on me it felt like a movie when I saw him when I lifted the blindfold up earlier today" I cryed to her and she wrapped me in a hug "why can't you guys see that I love him" I told my mom which took her by surprise "pardon" she said "I love him mom I love him more than the stars in the sky more than the leaves in the trees why is that so hard for you to understand?""It's not, I guess me and your dad just aren't used you and your sisters loving someone else." She explained then sighed. "I just don't understand why he had to grab it from my neck." I said. "Now that the three of you have boys in your life your dad feels useless so he wants you guys to at least have a piece of him with you." She explained. "Oh.." I said I didn't really know how to reply to what she had just said.

 "Why can't he just respect that those people asked permission from him instead of asking us first.." I said "Your dads just old fashioned in that way Sierra it how he knows your safe and respected" my mom said "mom why the necklace he could have chosen anything but the necklace I can't fix it every time I try piece it back together it breaks apart mom you must know why he went for the necklace it isn't just out of protection and fear I can see it in your eyes" I told her and she nodded and sighed "Sierra your dad just has his own ways that's all" she kept saying that " mom I don't understand I love ramin he loves me why can't dad respect that why did he separate us for weeks?" I asked yeah losing my innocence was 'bad' but not the huge deal he made it up to be

"I mean I'm not pregnant so why is he so mad at me." I asked. "He's religious remember." My mom said. "Did he think ripping it off my neck would make me respect him?" I asked. "I don't usually know what goes on in your dad's head. He has a different way of showing his love." She explained. "But Mom.""Sierra" she said "mom hear me out please he's put me through so much pain I don't think he understands what taking away a person can do to someone I didn't sleep for six weeks I didn't really eat either I cried every day and when I went to see him yesterday we-" should I tell my mom we were super close but I didn't want her to tell dad "don't tell dad" I asked and she nodded I quickly went to my bathroom and washed the foundation off my neck arms and chest I took a deep breath and walked back into my room "yesterday me and ramin we we showed our love to each other " I said stepping into the light revealing all the purple kisses he left me with "Sierra you let him do this to you" she said quietly "no I wanted him to do this to me I did it to him I just felt like I needed to be honest with at least one of my parents '' I said

She gave me a hug and kissed my head. "That's how much that you love him?" She asked "Yes mom, please don't tell dad." I said. "Since you love him that much, I'll try to talk to your dad about it." She said. "Thank you mom." I said "I should probably go talk to him now." She said and I nodded my head. It felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders my mom didn't hate me for it she acted like she was proud of me but I can see why with everything I've been through I fell back onto my bed remembering how he felt on me images plaguing my mind of us two I was so childish as I blushed at the memories and pleasure I remembered as I touched my neck then there was a knock at my window he didn't did he ? I placed my hoodie on and went to the window. "You have to go" I said as I opened the window. "Why?" He asked. "My dad is gonna kill you." He said and looked at my neck. "Where's your necklace?" He asked "My dad ripped it from my neck so it's in pieces." I explained. "Why did he do that?" He asked "because he was going to give me a necklace similar to what he gave Summer when she turned 18." I said I was almost in tears "Ramin I'm" I started "it's ok I guess I'll have to make it up to you for our eleven months won't I" he said "yeah I guess" I giggled "but seriously ram your gonna get yourself killed" I said "then let me in so I'm not freezing cold" he said and I let him in he immediately went to the desk and stuck the necklace together "see good as new" how did he do that I right as he placed it on my neck "I love you" I said "I love you too sie" he said and we gave eachother a quick kiss and then he had to go "Ramin'' I said as he was halfway down " I love you" and then he left and I closed my window

Once he left I decided to take a shower. I scrubbed all of the sweat and makeup off my body. I changed into a sweater and my fuzziest pjs. I let my hair dry then started reading the letters and cards that were given to me earlier. I read my cousins, then family, I read Hadley, Mandy and Ramin's cards last. They were all sweet but the one that really made me cry were from my friends though I have only been with them for almost a year. I realized our finals were next week so I started studying a few subjects since it wasn't that late yet. I fell asleep at the desk studying because I felt two arms gently shake me awake "Sierra" it was Sunday couldn't they just let me sleeping for once "hmm go back to bed" I told my sister "Sierra come on I'm being serious" she told me which got me worried i rubbed the sleep out of my eyes ''what's wrong" I asked her and she held out her left hand oh my god "What the-'' was my reaction. "Do mom and dad know?" I asked her. "Wait I don't really understand what's happening?" I said I rested my head on my hands ''What's that Summer?" I asked she stayed silent for a while "summer what is that I'm being serious" I said yawning because I was still half asleep "isn't it beautiful" she said fiddling with the ring "summer you barely know each other and now your no way your not umm are you?"

not umm are you?"

"God no Sierra I'm not pregnant" she said but why was she wearing a ring "summer please just tell me you didn't" I asked "I did.." she said starting to tear up. "Isn't that like too early? I mean 4 months." I said then she looked deep in thought. "This is the most important question. Did he ask our parents?" I asked her. "I don't know with him, he just proposed last night while you were asleep." She explained "Don't you have a curfew? Oh yeah both of you have 2 or 3 more hours than me." I said "Sierra I'm getting married" she said excitedly I couldn't tell what to do I was so happy for her she loved Brian I'd seen it an yes she was two years older than me but they had only been together for two months and if he hadn't asked our parents she'd be Even deader than me "summer you have to tell dad and mom" I said "I will I will just when it's the right time" she said and I hugged her I went downstairs to get some breakfast got the bowl out of the draw when I herd a voice bellow "Sierra" causing me to drop the bowl as it fell in slow motion and smashed into small shards which scattered all over the floor 

"Sierra get your ass in this room right now" he shouted fuck I forgot to cover my memories oh no summer and now this I was dead surely I was a dead girl walking.