Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 56

Since I slept at 9pm I woke up at 4am and decided to study because I forgot to yesterday. Today's exams were Math and History. I started reviewing history since I just needed to refresh my memory a bit. That only took about 2 hours. I heard knocks on my door I wondered why since I didn't know who it was I hid the recent letter I got. "Come in" I said "Hi Sierra!" My dad said. "Hi dad," I said, removing my earphones. "Why are you up this early?" He asked me. "Because I'm studying for my History and Math exams" I said "Oh ok" he said "why" I asked " you could have been a bit happier for your sister earlier that was very selfish of you Sierra" my dad said I couldn't be bothered for another argument "I congratulated her when she told me dad don't worry" I said and he left my room the nerve of some people I kept studying until it was time for my history exam which I felt awful during because I knew it was going really bad then I started my maths paper thinking about all the fun me and ramin had had in maths like that one time when he started mocking the teacher because me and Hadley were getting bored.

 When I was done I gave the folder to my mom and went to my room. I was studying for the exams tomorrow which were for Physics and Drama. I didn't really know how we were going to do the Drama exam so I just studied Physics. I waited until I heard the sound of my mailbox being opened and closed. I saw my mom get it and have a short conversation with him. I wonder what it was about. She came back into the house with the letter "Sierra I think you should go to your window at eight o'clock tonight" she said "what?" I was very confused "well a friend told me someone might be waiting to give you your 11 month anniversary present" she said hold on it was 11 months today no way no way "ok did you umm get the thing" I asked and she handed it to me I squealed a little bit and ran up to my room holding it in my hands Hugging it into my chest I calmed down and opened the letter it read

'Hi Sie, guess who started dating 11 months ago? Well, of course you know now it's us. It sucks that I can't be able to hug you or cuddle with you. I don't know how I'm going to do this but I guess by now your mom told you to wait by your window at 8. If you have suggestions on how I can give it without your dad catching me please send it to me in your letter. We're about to be dating for a year that's crazy. I can't believe this school year is going to end with you away from me. I miss you and I love you so much. See you through your window. -Ramin'

That was so sweet of him. I guess I should think of how we can see each other without my dad seeing. I called my mom "mom do you have a spare key for the window and my door" I asked "let me check" she said and went to see if she did I waited for a while and she came back with two keys " yes I do actually let me guess is this so ramin can give you his present" she asked and I nodded and blushed and handed me the keys I hid them in the draw and gave her the biggest hug in the world "what was that for" she asked "for keeping this a secret" I said and she left my room I sat back down at my desk and started to write "Oh mom!" I called "Give me a minute." She said. "What?" She asked when she arrived in my room. "Can you and dad maybe go out at 8 so that we won't get caught?" I asked. "Actually we are, so don't worry about that. Your sisters are probably just staying in their rooms." She said "Oh okay! Thanks again mom, I'll give you the letter in like 5 or 10 minutes." I said then she went out of my room I'm always faced with this question when I sit here but I know what I want to say this time I started to write 'ramin it's crazy that it's almost been a year since we started dating I love you so much truly my parents are going out at 8 and I got the key to my window so you can climb through I'm really sorry but I haven't been able to get you anything I've been on house watch from my dad but we could hug today and that's all that matters to me is to hear your voice it's been so long what is it now three weeks without you I miss you more and more each day hearing your voice might just melt me but I can't wait to see you for real this time and not through a glass pane I love you ram love your one soulmate sierra' I put it in the envelope and gave it to my mom who went to go get my sisters

Once my sisters arrived I heard knocks on my door. "Who is it?" I asked. "It's Summer and Allegra, Can we come in?" Summer asked. "Yes you can." I said then they entered the room.

"Sierra, what was up with you last night? You told me to tell mom and dad then you went to your room and not want to talk to me?" She asked which made me feel guilty "I was just overwhelmed from my exams I'm so happy for you summer" I said and she believed me "thank you Sierra I'm sure you'll find love again too" she said they didn't know about the letters just me mom and ramin "yeah hopefully" I sighed "anyways I'm going to look at wedding dresses wanna come" she asked Allegra nodded eagerly but since it was six I shook my head " I have to study but have fun " I said and then dinner was called The three of us went down to see our parents all dressed up. "Where are you two off to?" Summer asked "Were going on a day off from you girls, we don't know what time we will be back all we know is that it will be past 11. So you all should be asleep by then." Our dad said. "Aside from that, we already prepared dinner for the three of you so you won't need to order or cook." My mom said "I guess we better get going then." My dad said. "Bye mom and dad, have fun!" We all said then they were gone.

We ate dinner then talked some more the time was edging closer only half an hour now summer and Allegra went to go look at bridesmaid dresses I just told them I was tired and went up to my room I locked my door with the first key and unlocked my window with the second ten minutes I couldn't wait to see him and it actually be him and not some picture I kept staring at on my bedside table and hugged before I went to sleep I got changed so I'd look nice for him and I curled my hair and put the lip gloss I hadn't worn in weeks back on my lips five minutes to go.