Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 16

"Sierra, how are you? You look like you lack sleep." Mandy said. "My sisters, they talked to me about it and I couldn't sleep because I was overthinking everything." I said. "Overthinking what?" Ramin asked, popping out of nowhere behind me. "I'm still mad at you, so I'm not talking to you." I told him still facing Mandy. Then I signaled her to follow me as we went to the cafeteria we both sat down. "Two of them are gonna be the death of me I couldn't stop thinking about what they were fighting over Mandy. My sisters said it could be me but I don't think it is it wouldn't be right?" I asked her "No of course not why would they fight over you?" she said "Omg you know something don't you." I said and she nodded "I can't tell you I promised I wouldn't tell anyone and I haven't." I had to respect that "Plus your going to Ramin's house today so you actually might want to talk to him." she said "Thanks Mandy.'' I said and walked to my class since it was a half day we only had three classes "What were you overthinking Sie?" was the first thing he asked when I sat down "I'm not telling you until you tell me what the fight was about ok."

"Well, I'm not telling you what it's about." He said "Then I'm not telling you what I'm overthinking of. It's that easy." I said and tried to walk ahead of him but he caught up quickly. "Are you okay? You look tired? Was this because you're overthinking?" He asked but ignored him. "Sierra please answer me." He said. "I'm sorry, I'm being professional and respecting your decision." I said not taking a single glance at him. "For god's sake look at me Sierra." He said, sounding mad. So I looked at him not minding that he's now seeing me cry.

"God Ramin why are you so bothered" I asked him a few tears landing on my cheeks "I'm so bothered because I care about you okay. I think I care about you more than I should but that doesn't matter I just want to see if your doing ok you look so tired you keep ignoring me heck we haven't spoken all week apart from now." he said and I started crying more "What have I done?" he muttered as his eyes turned heavy he went to go somewhere but I instinctively grabbed his hand "Nothing you've done nothing I just didn't like seeing you get beat up it scared me Ram and now you won't tell me why you did I care about you as well." I said wiping tears from my face "You know what.. never mind." I said, went to the restroom and cleaned myself up. Then I saw Mandy come out of a cubicle.

 "Oh my god Sierra what happened?" Mandy asked. "Ramin shouted at me and I got scared so I started tearing up.." I said. "Oh my gosh.. but are you talking now?" She asked and I shook my head. "You should try to fix this before you go to his house.. it's almost dismissal." She said. "I'm not going to his house anymore.. I'll just go home." I said then decided to send my mom a text. "You should at least try." Mandy said and I nodded my head. I sent the message to my mom knowing that if it pushes through we can let my mom drop me off and if not I'm just going home. I had to explain that we fought. Then me and Mandy went to the hallway and went to our respective classes. "Sie I'm so sorry about earlier I never meant to shout at you I promised myself I'd never shout at you and I broke it Sie I'm so stupid can you ever forgive me." he pleaded "I will but just when we get to your house I want to know why you and Tam fought." I said and he nodded his head.

 English was boring as per usual I texted my mom to say that it didn't matter anymore and I went to meet Ramin at our locker but when I got their Tam was stood their and so was Ramin oh god just relax Sierra breathe remember to breathe their your friends.

 "Hey guys!" I said putting all of my stuff into the locker "Hi!" Ramin said Tam walked behind me my breath sped up I shut the locker "Hey Tam!'' I said "Hey Sierra!" he said he was close too close his hands grazed my waist and shoved him away "You idiot." I heard ramin say as I dropped to the floor "Sie it's me ram yeah you remember." I nodded my head "Can I help you up?" he asked I flung my arms around him and he helped me up "j j Jeremy he he wa was back." I cried. "Just wait here for a while. I'll be back." He said. But I was scared. This was so far the second worst panic attack I had. I ran out of the campus and called my mom. Ring... ring.... ringgg... mom please pick up... after one last ring she picked up the phone. "Mom? Can you come her quickly please I'm sorry." I said "Why Sierra?" She asked. "je Jeremy is back.. please hurry mom!" I said and she arrived in less than two minutes. I got in the car and shut the door. "Let's go mom.." I said "bu-'' I cut her off. "I'm sorry mom but can we please just go..." I said and she drove us both home. I rushed inside the house and went to my room. My mom followed slowly after that. I sat on my bed crying, I was lucky enough that there were not a lot of people, but the two things I didn't want to happen. Just happened. I heard knocks on my door. "Sierra can I come in?" My mom asked. "Yes you can mom.." I said lightly.

"Sierra there's someone here to see you can he come in as well" I nodded before the person came into my room my mom tried to calm me down we tried everything in the book but it was useless I was still crying "Sierra the guys going to come in now okay." my mom said as she left to room and Ramin walked into my room and rushed to my side cradling me as I cried into him "Sie it's me Ramin. Tam sends his apologies, what's wrong?" I heard his tone "A blue dress just above my knee with a silver zipper at the back and some black heels my hair was down." I replied "Sie it's Ramin are you with me?" He said looking into my eyes "Yes officer I did I tried with all my might." I said "Sierra look at me." I did and froze "Ramin is that you." he nodded "Oh my god I'm so sorry we should get to your house and start rehearsal." I said hopping off his knee gathering my stuff together

"What were you saying?" He asked. "Excuse me?" I replied. "Something about a blue dress and that you tried with all your might." He said and I froze. "i- It was nothing. Don't worry about me. So let's go?" I said and took a deep breath. So we went down the stairs. I told him to wait, since I had to tell my mom. "Are you okay?" She whispered and I shook my head. "Then you should tell him." She said. "It's okay mom, I'll be okay." I said. "Just call me if you need me." She said, I nodded my head as she kissed my forehead.