Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 22

I woke up a bit late today so I had to prepare myself and my stuff as fast as I can. Luckily, my sisters were kind enough to make me a smoothie for breakfast. I ran to the car and we were off to school. I received a text from Ramin that he would arrive a bit late to school. "Bye family!" I said blowing kisses to all of them. I went in the campus and directly to my locker. I saw Tam waiting for me there. I wonder why?. "Oh hey Tam!" I said. "Hi Sierra." He replied "How are you?" I asked. "I'm good." He replied. "That's nice" I hated small talk this never happens to me ever I thought as I opened my locker. "So I found a really nice place in the city I was wondering if you wanted to go their with me tomorrow?" He asked "I'm really sorry Tam but I have rehearsal with Ramin tomorrow but maybe you could go with Mandy I'm sure she'd love it." I suggested "Yeah oh or we could go for a coffee tonight for old time sakes." he said "Tam I'm sorry but I'm busy tonight as well." What was he trying to do ask me on a date or something I thought closing my locker then my vision was blocked. "Guess who?" the voice said

 "uummmm the adorable guy who I really like." I said as he stepped in front of me "How did you guess?" he said "Ramin." I smiled and hugged him "I need to tell you something later." I whispered into his ear and he nodded "still in my sweater I see she's a keeper right Tam." he nudged him "Oh yeah for sure." He said then walked off "That was so strange." He said. "He was trying to ask me out." I said then he unwrap his arms around me so that he could see me. "He did?" He asked and I nodded my head. "It's okay, I told him Mandy might want to go." I said. "Oh okay, I was worried you'd say yes." He said. "He asked on the days we had to practice. If we had no practice I would have went." I joked but his reaction was priceless. "He's just my friend, gosh Ramin don't you trust me?" I asked them laughed.

"You suck." he said and we both laughed "Come on we're gonna be late I don't want people assuming." as we walked into chemistry we got stares and people started whispering "Ram why are they whispering it's making me nervous." I said sitting down next to him and that girl that sat next to Ramin turned to me "Wow you really rejected Tam.'' she said "Well yeah of course I did why wouldn't I?" I told her "He really likes you new girl that was a huge mistake plus he's not gonna ask you out." she said pointing at Ramin "And why wouldn't he do that?" I questioned "You're not his type come on a redhead with pale skin and green eyes woman up he'd much prefer someone like me blonde tan with blue eyes." she said then turned back around I was almost in tears which even I must admit was pretty pathetic "Okay thanks for the info." I said, I turned away from her and rolled my eyes. I stood up to go to the restroom, Ramin noticed I didn't tell him where I was going so he grabbed my wrist and looked at me. "I'm okay." I said pulled my hand away and went to the restroom. That was rude of her to say that. I know I shouldn't let it get in my head since we're dating now. But what if all she said was true. What if he's just going out with me to catch the attention of other girls. But what if what I thought was true. Stop it Sierra! Get yourself together. I told myself , wiped my tears away and entered the classroom and took my seat 

"Sie you've been crying haven't you?" he asked, that little blonde bitch was listening into our conversation "Yeah it's just mean that she'd say that to me you know." I told him and he took my hand "Oh stop crying new girl honestly it's pathetic." the blonde girl told me "Hey don't you dare insult my girlfriend like that again." Ramin told her in a rather unpleasant tone "g girlfriend?" She stuttered but he didn't bother to reply. "Sie are you ok do you need a hug?" he asked and held me in a nice embrace "You didn't have to do that you know. I could have just ignored her." I said

"But I wanted to." He said and I nodded my head. But her words kept replaying in my head. 'You're not his type.' 'He's not gonna ask you out.' then it started changing to. 'He's just using you to get attention.' 'He doesn't like you, he never will.' 'You are not good enough for him.' I thought then removed my hand from his. He just called you his girlfriend and protected you from what that girl said. That was going on and on in my head until it was lunch time. I couldn't believe that I haven't talked to him ever since the first subject. I felt bad. Last period had ended and I walked to our locker he was stood there waiting for me "Ram I'm so sorry it just what that girl said and I trust you but it just keeps replaying in my head." I told him "Sie what's wrong I hate seeing you like this." he said taking my hand "Well it's just that ever since she said that I'm not your type things In my head have been replaying all day things like he's just using you to get attention and he doesn't like you he never will your not good enough for him and I don't know what to believe anymore." I told him shutting my locker his hand went under my chin "Sierra I want you to look at me and please stop crying it hurts me just as much as it hurts you." he said "I don't think I believe you." I said. "I'm sorry.." I added still not looking him in the eye. "What about are practice today?" He asked. "If we do it today I don't think it would be successful because of my mood." I said. "Please at least look me in the eye Sie.." he said softly so I did. "I would rather be with you than any blonde girl who has a weird attitude . Because I like you for you." He said and gave me a smile. "Plus our rehearsal is tomorrow anyways may I walk you home?" he asked and I reluctantly nodded as we head out the school together and we walked with our hands laced in a calming silence we got to my door "Guess this is me then." I said "Sie I have this for you." he said pulling a second sweater out of his bag and he handed it to me I smelt it it was so warm "Thanks ramin I'm I'm sorry for this." I apologised "Don't apologise Sie we all have crappy days is there anything I can do to make it better." he asked and I held my arms out gesturing for a hug he wrapped his arms around my shoulders and I rested my chin on his shoulder once I felt it was time to pull away I did "bye ram see you in the morning" I said "Bye Sie you'll always be my choice always."  and I walked into my house.