Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 25

I woke up in a different location my vision was still blurry so I had no idea where I was. "Thank you for bringing her home." I think that was my mom's voice why would I be home? Isn't it a school day? Wait who would bring me home? "It's okay Mrs Boggess I'm so sorry that happened to her I could have done something more to stop him." Ramin? Had he carried me home? "It's quite alright I'm just glad she's okay." yeah that was my mom "Mrs Boggess can I stay with her I don't want her to think I just left and for her to get more worked up when she wakes up." he asked permission, how nice is that? "That's okay Ramin, you can stay with her." my mom told him and he walked over to the sofa that he had laid me there. "Hey Sie" he gently held my hand "Ramin? I'm sorry." I sighed. "Why are you sorry? You didn't do anything wrong." He replied. "I did, it's all my fault." I said. "No it isn't, I was the one who fought him." He said. "But he kept getting mad at me because I kissed you. I don't even know how he figured that out." I said "That doesn't mean that it's your fault." He replied "I just wanted you two to stop fighting. But it had to happen again..." I said not realizing my mistake. "Again? What do you mean?" He was very worried.

"The panic attack" I stated "Sie you never had a panic attack you just fainted which could actually have been because of your panic attacks actually I'm sorry." he said "It's okay Ram, it was just so scary he kissed me then you came and then Hadley and Mandy saved me and then I went back and he felt me and kissed me again I was so scared I didn't know what to do Ramin I didn't want it to happen again." I started to tear up...great "Sie you keep saying again why?" He asked me " I it It's nothing you need to know about.." I said. "I want to know Sie, I don't want you to get hurt again." He's just so caring and nice what else am I supposed to do. I'll just keep it to myself it won't happen again if I won't tell him or anyone.

 "I just want to know so that I can stop it from happening." He added. "It's something you can't stop because it already happened. It's finished." I said. "Just tell me Sierra." He said calmly. "I don't want to, I'm sorry.." I closed my eyes so I won't see him and his face begging me to tell him. "Do you trust me?" I nodded my head. "Then you know that I won't get mad or disown you." He said. "It's not what you think. I'm sorry." I said "Sie whatever it is I will help you with it I'll try avoid doing things that trigger it. I'll protect you from something that reminds you of it whatever it is but Sie, you have to tell me." he said even calmer than before "Ram, I trust you it's just I i it's really hard to talk about can I have a few minutes and can you get my mom then I'll tell you I can't promise anything though." he nodded and went to go get my mom I told my mom what I was going to say.

 "Are you sure you want to do this Sierra?" She asked and I reluctantly nodded my head. "Ramin, I know you're a great guy. But please don't tell anyone what Sierra is about to say because she's been hiding it. She's scared that people would be mean to her and ignore her." My mom said "Don't worry Mrs Boggess, I won't tell a soul." He said. "So i i-I i I can't do this" I said breaking down in his arms my mom was in the room with us "Sie your a strong young lady you can do this" he said as I tried to wipe away my tears and took a breath "I went to a party with some of my friends from m m my o old s school" I started

"I trusted them soo much. We played a game when it was done we went to another location and my friend started hitting on me but I ignored him. a a And. No no I'm not gonna do this." I said and ran to my room then locked the door. "Sierra!" My mom shouted. "I don't want to tell him mom!" I replied. "Sierra" I heard him say as he calmly knocked on my door "Sierra, I know it's hard for you but your doing really well I promise I'm not gonna say anything to anyone unless you tell me it's okay. Alright?" he slowly opened my door and stepped into my room "Sie can I come over and sit next to you?" I nodded as I was wrapped in my blanket trying to stop my tears from falling. "h- h h He r r rap- raped me." I sobbed "I was calling for help from my friends b b b- but they ignored me." I hid under the blankets not wanting to see his reaction. "s Sierra'' he said. "See this is what I didn't want to happen." I cried. He lifted the blanket off me and cradled me in a hug which I wasn't expecting "Ramin, what are you doing ? Why don't you hate me?" He's a nice guy of course he wouldn't hate anyone but because of what happened to me it's possible.