Let it hurt Let it bleed

Chapter 57

I didn't bother to change because yeah. I made sure my doors were locked. I saw him walk by grab the ladder and started climbing it. Once he got in my room I immediately gave him a hug and started crying. "I missed you so much." I said softly and he started brushing his fingers through my hair. I looked up at him who was smiling at me. "Hey" he said and I started blushing. "Hey" I said back still blushing he hadn't held me in so long "happy anniversary baby" he said brushing his hands through my hair which made me smile a lot he let me go and pulled something out of his pocket he walked me to the mirror " close your eyes" he said and I did I felt two things go into my ears "you can open them now" I did and saw the prettiest earrings they were white snowflakes that glittered in the moonlight "ram you didn't have to" I said "but I wanted to" he said holding me again I loved being held by him and was one of the things I missed the most "I'm sorry I couldn't get you anything" I said ashamed because he just bought me these cute earrings "You doing this is enough" He said and I let out a sigh. "Are you okay?" He asked while pulling me by my waist. "I have to take these off so that my dad won't take it away from me" I said "it's okay" he replied. "I'm sorry that I'm so problematic." I said "you could have had a better non problematic girlfriend but you had to choose me." I said "Even If I didn't have a choice I'd still choose you" he said which was so romantic I took the earrings out and put them into the box of his stuff that didn't get burnt in the fire pit "ram your so sweet" I said as I put my hands around his neck "no your just amazing at everything over ruled by your boyfriend sorry bout that" he said the laughed how I missed that laugh and that smile and those eyes and the cute little dimples he got when he smirked and his smirk and and those lips that I have been longing to kiss. 

We both leaned in and shared a sweet kiss. It's been a long time since my knees became weak. "Your weak again?" He joked as I held out both my arms asking for help to stand up. I checked the time it was already 10pm I let out a sigh. "What is it now?" He asked. "I guess you better get going now..." I said "why?" He asked "because my parents will be back soon and you still have school tomorrow." I said "Has it been that long already?" He asked and I nodded not wanting him to go but knowing if I wanted to get his handwriting at all it was the safest option "yeah oh I'm gonna miss you your so much more muscly now" I said feeling his arms whilst hugging him and he flexed them "I love you sie" he said "I love you too" I said and we both leaned in for another kiss I savoured his lips cupping his face half way in the kiss then letting go as my knees went again "you really have missed me haven't you" he said lifting me up and I nodded he climbed out the window "I love you baby" he whispered before going and just like that he was gone I locked my window and unlocked my door I hid the window key in the folder which was in my drawer. I placed my hair in a messy bun and washed off all my makeup. I turned off the lights and tried to make myself comfortable. Everything that just happened just kept on rewinding in my head until I fell asleep.

I woke up full of joy what happened last night made me smile and I had no more finals to do either so I went downstairs and got breakfast when I went down I saw summer in my moms wedding dress she looked so beautiful but that's the dress I imagined walking down the aisle to ramin in yes she looked stunning in it but it wasn't perfect "summer darling imagine how happy your mom will be if you wear it" I herd dad say " I know dad but this isn't my dress it's sierras'' she said knowing how much I loved the dress "yes honey I understand but your the first one if you really want the dress it's your and Sierra can't do anything about that" he said and what I herd next shocked me " okay I'll wear it this is my wedding dress" she squealed happily "You do look stunning in that dress Summer. If anyone needs me I'll be in my room." I said with a sarcastic smile nobody would know the difference between my smiles anyways because they don't care about the middle child. I went up the stairs and slowly closed and locked my doors. Once I was sure that nobody cared or was outside my room I started hitting my pillow. I mean she's the oldest of course she gets the first choice. Youngest is cute, she's also important. Middle nah I don't think so maybe they should just die. I never get anything that I want and if I do I get it taken away the next day even though I didn't do anything. But if it's them they get the first choice and they get to keep it. It's totally fair. But that was my dress. She knew how much I loved that dress since I first saw mom in a picture of her wearing it it was my dress I loved it since I was five! FIVE! and now all of a sudden she's wearing it at her wedding that's not even right she knew him shorter she did it with him earlier they get engaged and now she gets my moms dress how unfair and the only thing I get is oh poor Sierra is she recovering ok oh little Sierra so innocent oh Sierra I'm so sorry that happened to you I've got the one thing I love taken away from me the day after my birthday and she could  get married no it's unjustified does my dad just hate me that much for no reason no one cares about the middle child in this family except from my mom Then Summer barged in my door. "Since when did you not knock on my door?" I asked her. "Oh sorry." She said not looking any close to sincere. "What do you want to get from me or show off now?" I said sarcastically. 

"Excuse me?" She asked "How does it feel to be dad's favourite?" I asked. "I don't know what you mean." She said. "You do, I know you're not dumb. You just don't know how it feels to be pitied and hated by the family." I said "Sierra, don't think of it like that." She said "How can I not think of it like that? Ever since I couldn't see Ramin all of you were becoming distant. I know I know you're all too cool for your lame old sister who got raped and got everything she loves taken away from her. You know sometimes I imagine what would happen if I just die. I don't think there would be any difference. Alive or not nobody cares for that unimportant girl named Sierra" I said "oh my god will you just shut up just because I get to wear mom's wedding dress and you don't and maybe because Brian's better than ramin your just so jealous of me wow this is unbelievable" she said I'd never seen this side to summer before "the only reason you're mad is because you can see your precious little ramin and that I'm getting married in MY wedding dress that I have loved since I tried it oh honestly Sierra your so pathetic grow up" she spat "don't you think I have I had to grow up because of what happened to me can't you understand that I've never been loved in this family every one always pities me except mom she's the only one who understands your such a bitch summer get out of my room enjoy your wedding dress I don't care anymore" she stormed out of my room and went crying to my dad great attack on Sierra the prequel