Aurora Borealis

Chapter 65 - Heartstrings

>> • LAUREN • <<

Dad, I'm actually doing it. Can you believe this?

"Somehow, I don't feel like going. Guess what, I went to Wendy's funeral yesterday. And I didn't actually got a chance to apologize to her."

Inilapag ko ang maleta sa damuhan at sumalampak lamang sa harapan ng lapida ni Dad.

"I know. Of all these times, why did I decide to apologize now when I had a lot of chances that I didn't take?"

My flight's tomorrow, but I needed to stay on a hotel so it won't be a hassle to drive to the airport. I'll spend the rest of my time today doing the things I need to do before I finally leave.

"I'm too afraid to approach her. Hindi lang isang beses pumasok sa isipan ko na sumubok na humingi ng tawad, pero pinapangunahan ako lagi ng takot. That day when we got in an argument, she told me she'll never forgive me even if I apologize." I whispered as I played with the blades of grass on my leg.

Putting myself in her shoes, I now definitely understand what she's feeling that time.

"I don't want to apologize just for me to feel better and lift away the heaviness of my own heart. I want her to hear it, and I want her to know that I'm sincere." I paused for a while to feel the wind brushing on my skin. "But even if she's not going to hear me anymore, I still tried it when I visited her grave. It beats not trying, right?"

Other people who are passing by may mistook me for an idiot, but I didn't care as I lied down the grass and gazed at the blue sky.

"I just dropped by to say hello, Dad. Well, it's not really all about asking how you do now since I also came here to brag." I grinned. "I'm not going to cry again like last time."

Wait...

Last time?

A sharp pang struck my head as I rose up.

When was the last time that I've been here?

"I want you to be my boyfriend."

"Are you out of your mind? I don't know how to handle relationships!"

"So am I. Guess we need to learn throughout the process."

"I thought you're going to transfer in a different university in two months?"

"Sinong may sabi?"

"Wendy and the others."

"They're going ahead before I even told them my decision. I've already decided."

"So, you're going?"

"Nope."

"What?! Why?"

"I still want to be with all of you guys. Also, there are promises that I haven't yet fulfilled." tugon ko at tumingin sa phone ko upang tingnan ang litrato na kasama ang buong team ng Astra Silver Orions.

"I want to get stronger, so I can finally catch up to him."

Images started registering in my mind and everything's flashing too quick that I can't digest and look at those more closely.

"Beau..."

"See you later."

Cold beads of sweat broke in on my forehead. All I can do is gasp from what I've been seeing.