Aurora Borealis

Chapter 56 - Point of No Return

>> • LAUREN • <<

Torn.

I've been staring at the door for a few minutes now. A text message from East woke the living daylights in me, saying that I should hurry because Barron is in danger.

Ano namang magagawa sa kaniya ng pagpunta ko ro'n? We're not really close, even if East tells me that he's a friend.

When you don't know the person, it's hard to give them your sincerest empathies and the best you could do is be sympathetic towards people and their shortcomings.

Plus, Wendy's words are engraved in my mind. By hurting anyone, I don't have any single idea what she means. But if she knows something like that, then I guess I should trust her.

The best thing I can do right now is send my prayers in hopes that it would also appease the worries and distress that they're feeling right now.

"I'll call you tomorrow, love. I have something to do. Bye, I love you." I told Spencer before hanging up the phone. Ibaba ko na sana ito ngunit agad ding naalarma nang muli itong mag-ring.

"Hello—"

"Where the f*ck are you, Lauren?" Wendy's repressed whispers greeted my 'Hello' just like that.

"Nasa bahay. Bakit?"

Hindi na siya sumagot kaya akala ko'y ibinaba na niya ang tawag. Walang anu-ano'y nakarinig ako ng malalim na buntong-hininga mula sa kaniya.

"Alam mo na ba 'yung nangyari?"

"Yes. Tell them that I'll send my prayers." sagot ko.

"F*ck. F*ck. F*ck!"

"Why? You don't like a prayer?"

"That's not it. I'm just cursing at myself. Sorry for interrupting your nighttime romances with your loverboy." aniya at ibinaba na ang tawag bago pa man ako makapag-react. Pfft. Loverboy? That's cute, maybe I'll call Spencer that some other time.

Binuksan ko ang switch ng ilaw dahil mas nakakapagfocus ako sa pagdarasal kapag maliwanag sa kuwarto. Upon seconds of feeling the silence, I closed my eyes and mustered up all the words that I could say as much as I can.

Matapos ang ilang minutong pagdarasal, I lied down the bed and I can feel my yawns spiraling in my head and lips. Out of nowhere, I got a sudden urge to play basketball on the wall.

Hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko minsan. May mga beses talaga na bigla na lang akong gaganahang gumawa ng mga bagay-bagay sa kalagitnaan ng gabi. The motivation usually disappears by morning if I ignore those urges.

Tinatamad na rin naman akong bumangon dahil sobrang kumportable sa pakiramdam ang kama ko.

How could you sleep in the bed when someone you knew is in a critical state?

Napadilat na lamang ako nang pumasok sa isipan ko ang tanong na iyon. If someone here has an emotional attachment with that person, that would be the 'Lauren' before.

But I don't want to be rude either, and so I'm already facing my closet and looking for something to wear. Ospital lang naman ang pupuntahan ko kaya hindi ko na kailangang magsuot ng kung anong enggrande.

Kinuha ko ang gray varsity jacket ko na may tatak ng 'Astra' sa likuran at may nakaburdang 'Captain' sa bandang ibabaw ng kanang dibdib. Among my jackets and sweaters, it's really my favorite even if the memories latched on to this jacket aren't just pure sweet ones. I paired it with a brown corduroy. Binuklat ko rin ang shoe rack at kinuha ang pares ng itim na Converse.