BTS Sickfics [Volume 1]

Jungkook: Seizure

Requested by @YoonjiOni :)

(A/N I started to realize that most of your requests are about the three maknaes, give the hyungs some chance too lol)

Another day of dance practice. Another day of vocal training. Another day of being shouted at. Sure, this was normal for an idol, but was it the idol life that Jungkook had dreamt of when he was way younger? Was it the fame and gorgeous days that Jungkook had imagined?

Well, I can tell you, it's a firm and absolutely no for him.

Although it's been four whole years, he still isn't completely used to it. Sometimes, he wakes up to him thinking over and over again. 'Am I an idol? Am I worldwide famous? Am I known by almost everyone around the world?'

He had been depressed and was suffering from anxiety, but he knew he had to continue. He couldn't resist from peeking into Twitter... and find out about hate comments talking about him. He kept telling himself that he was doing that to improve himself, but no, he was only lying to himself and the others.

Jungkook was known as the golden maknae, and that nickname, that simple nickname which only contained twelve letters, put him in a lot of pressure. Golden maknae, golden maknae, golden maknae, he kept repeating to himself. Was he truly still so 'golden'?

He wasn't sure of himself, and that was one important thing.

***

Jungkook whimpered as he squeezed his eyes shut.

"... Jungkook! Are you even listening to me?! You dance like a complete freak! How are you even supposed to be a golden maknae now?"

That's right. He shouldn't even have debuted, he shouldn't have become an idol, or... a golden maknae. The two words always hurt him. People had a lot of expectations on him, because he was the golden maknae and was very talented.

They didn't know how hurt he was. They didn't know... none of them understand, he thought sadly.

"I-I'm sorry I disappointed you," he began tearing up as he ran out of the dance studio.

"JUNGKOOK! GET BACK HERE, YOU HEAR ME?!" the dance teacher shouted.

"Don't scare him," snapped Seokjin, "I'll go get him." The dance teacher rolled his eyes. "He's not a baby. He'll come back when he's calmed, and I'll give him a good scolding. He can't be such a brat all the time!"

"DO YOU NOT WORRY ABOUT HIM?!" shouted Yoongi angrily. Namjoon held him by the hand. "It's okay, Yoongi hyung, let's go find Jungkook now."

"As if it's okay..."

***

Jungkook sniffled. He was terrible at everything. He was sure of that, because he got yelled at every single day. He was only twenty-one, and he didn't expect that coming.

He didn't even expect himself running away.

He sighed as he hugged his BT21 stuffies close to himself, trying to find comfort. Sometimes, he wouldn't even bother finding his hyungs. He would just stay like that for an hour or so. He wished he could do so forever.

Jungkook started crying again. He hated this life. His hyungs didn't know, but he was struggling through life with anxiety medication.

He whimpered as he let darkness slowly take over his vision...

***

"Jungkookie? Hyung's here!" called out Seokjin with his search team, members including his five other dongsaengs. "I bet he's in his room," Yoongi pointed out. "Me too," agreed Taehyung.

The troop of six cautiously entered Jungkook's room, where said boy was...

"He's lying on the floor, with his arms and legs shaking, drool coming out from his mouth," Jimin described as if he was a narrator, "that has to be a- well I don't know, to be honest."

"A seizure," said Namjoon. "A sudden, uncontrolled electrical disturbance in the brain. It can cause changes in your behavior, movements or feelings, and in levels of consciousness." Hoseok raised a brow. "That seems dangerous. What should we do?"

Speaking of which, Namjoon had been observing. Jungkook had a slight, nearly missed blue tinge around the mouth. Namjoon frowned as he crouched down towards the maknae. "He's probably feeling limp," announced Namjoon.

"Call the ambulance!" he commanded, the only one who had experienced witnessing a seizure. "Right now! What are you waiting for? Quick, Jimin!" Jimin blinked and immediately jumped into action.

"That seems like a tonic seizure, also a clonic seizure, or maybe a... tonic-clonic seizure?" Namjoon was murmuring to himself.

"Tonic-clonic," Seokjin confirmed, looking up from his phone. "They say that we should-" However, before the eldest could finish his sentence, Jungkook gave a dry cough and let a mixture of vomit and saliva pour out of his mouth, leaving them shocked. "Quick, turn him to the side!"

Namjoon and Seokjin did so, and didn't forget to take away the BT21 stuffies that were close by to prevent Jungkook from getting injured. Taehyung placed a pillow gently under the youngest's head, and for once, they all calmed down when they saw that Jungkook was neither jerking around nor vomiting anymore.

"Lasted for eighty-three seconds," Taehyung broke the silence by saying. "That's... a pretty normal seizure," was all Namjoon could say. "I'll go get a mop," Hoseok offered, leaving the room to do so.

"I suppose he was stressed?" whispered Jimin, plopping down next to his fellow Busan mate, carefully avoiding the large puddle of vomit. "Very stressed," said Yoongi. "Apparently he has been taking anxiety medicine. That's what I found in his drawer when I was trying to find any records of having seizures or whatever just now."

"We'll probably find out more when we get to the hospital," concluded Seokjin.

***

"Jungkookie, you're alright, right?" chuckled Namjoon.

"Totally," grumbled Jungkook, who had just woken up, "am I at the hospital?"

"Totally," mimicked Taehyung, "you don't know how worried we've been when we witnessed you having a seizure."

"A seizure?" Jungkook seemed quite baffled at the moment.

"A tonic-clonic seizure," said a nurse, entering the room. "You've been unconscious for a couple of days."

"A seizure," Jungkook muttered to himself.

"And we found out about your anxiety medication," Yoongi added, "thanks to me."

"Seriously, Kook," Seokjin piped up, "you shouldn't have stressed yourself out anyways."

"You have been lying to us when we asked you how you are, and you said you were fine, right?" said Jimin.

"Caught in a lie~" Taehyung grinned as they gave their youngest a big, warm hug.

A/N I'm going to now tell you how I'm going to update. I'm updating twice in a week (my goal) and this is the first update of the week. I can update anytime in the week for the second time and that's it for the rest of the week.