BTS Sickfics [Volume 1]

Taehyung: Anxiety

Requested by @SaraKhan908378 (pretty sure someone requested about this before but I forgot about it lol)

Taehyung wanted to scream.

With depression and anxiety, he always wanted to scream. Firstly, he found out about one of his TXT dongsaengs had a name very close to his. That didn't affect him much, but for some reason, he felt more pressure.

And pressure was one of the reasons he had depression and anxiety.

He couldn't possibly scream, because now they were all cuddled up, watching whatever was on TV. It happened to be Paw Patrol that popped up, and usually some of them would complain about it, but now they were just too tired to care.

Aha, another reason Taehyung wanted to scream. He wished he could punch Chase right now, who was speaking pathetically in that squeaky voice. He hated it. His brain was chaotic right now, and watching a bunch of cartoon dogs and a boy trying to save the world was not a great solution.

"Can we switch the channel please?" Jungkook yawned. He was also sick of the cartoon. "Mhm," Seokjin agreed as he lazily pressed a random button, and guess what? Mickey Mouse was showing.

"Do you guys like mice or dogs more?" Hoseok tried to be positive and cheer up everyone. "Neither," grumbled Taehyung as he went upstairs to his room.

It was just too much for him to handle.

***

Taehyung scoffed at himself as he swallowed his horrible anxiety pills. He had kept it a secret from everyone except for Bang PD-nim and their manager Sejin.

"EVERYONE BREAKFAST IS READY!" Seokjin shouted from downstairs. Taehyung groaned. Everything just made him so stressful and pressured. It was now time to exchange identities from Taehyung to V.

V was a hardworking and passionate person, and tried his best in everything. Sometimes he let Taehyung have control over him, which he and Taehyung tried their best to avoid.

Just kidding, both of them were the same Kim Taehyung, but completely different.

He chugged down some water before he jogged downstairs to find the other six already digging in breakfast. "You should've come down earlier next time," Jimin snapped, "but whatever." Taehyung pouted as he sat down and waited for Seokjin to bring him nothing but yesterday's leftovers. "I thought we had pancakes?" Taehyung asked.

"Sorry, Tae, Jungkookie ate them all," sighed Hoseok. "I'm sorry hyung," said Jungkook to Taehyung, and the older one merely nodded.

What a stressful day to begin. He felt so pressured and he thought that he would have a panic attack right there on the spot, but fortunately he didn't. He closed his eyes and opened them again.

He was literally so pressured he decided to take another dose of his anxiety pills later on at dance practice.

***

"DNA!" whooped Hoseok as always as the song finished. It usually cheered everyone, especially Taehyung up, but not today. Well, it did the effect on everyone, except for Taehyung.

"Thanks for cheering us up, Hobi," grinned Yoongi. Hoseok just laughed. Taehyung, again, per usual, wanted to scream.

The anxiety and pressure building up inside him was just... taking over his body.

Just give up, Kim Taehyung, you're a useless fool. Look at Jungkook, he's good at everything, that's why he's the golden maknae. Look at Jiminie, he's amazing at dancing and he's got an amazing voice. Namjoon hyung, who's a great leader and rapper... I- I don't even want to think of it anymore.

Taehyung bit his lip as he went over to his bag, wanting to have his anxiety pills, not turning back when the others were about to start another song. "Taehyung?"

He couldn't hear them. He clenched his fists, sweat dripping from his forehead.

He was having a panic attack.

***

The panic attack ended after a couple of minutes, which felt like ages. Thankfully, the other members were there to help.

Taehyung scrambled over to his bag. He didn't care anymore that his members were going to find out. He just wanted to feel better currently.

He opened it and fished out the pills. As expected, Seokjin asked worriedly, "Pills? What pills are they?" Taehyung shook his head, his whole body trembling. "P-please... let me have them first." The members complied, watching the second youngest take the pills followed by water.

"What are they then?" demanded Namjoon. Taehyung shakily handed the small bag of pills to the leader. "Kim Taehyung, age 23," Namjoon recited, "a-anxiety pills? Tae, you've been taking anxiety pills?"

"Mhm," sniffled Taehyung, fiddling with his fingers, unable to stop the tears that slid down his cheeks. "Don't cry," whispered Jimin gently, kissing Taehyung's forehead.

"Hyuuuung," whined Taehyung, wiping his tears.

"Does Sejin-nim know?" asked Yoongi. "Yep," said Taehyung, calming down a little. "He told you to keep it a secret?" Taehyung blushed. "No, not really, I wanted to keep it from you guys. Didn't want you to worry." He snuggled into Namjoon's chest, with all seven of them sitting down on the floor.

"Cute," commented Namjoon, stroking Taehyung's hair, and thus ending the trauma.

I hope you like the new updating schedule! It's been four days lol.