Loki imagines

(Angst) All I ask : Songfic

I will leave my heart at the door,
I won't say a word.
They've all been said before you know.
So why don't we just play pretend.
Like we're not scared of what's coming next.
Or scared of having nothing left.
Look, don't get me wrong.
I know there's no tomorrow.

You shut the door behind you, keeping yourself calm but you knew fully well you were one moment close from your heart leaping out of it's chest. You were overall worried for this stone adventure, thinking that everything would go wrong. Overthinking all the horrible outcomes that may happen, "Do you have to go? Can you just stay here and wait for us till' we come back?"

"You know we'll half of this is my fault. This might be the only chance I could get my redemption. Why stop me?" Loki inquired, his head a bit tilted down. His arms covered behind his back in a way to hide his nervous mannerisms of tumbling with his fingers, "How about you? You're midguardian. Can't you just stay here and wait for us?"

"I know my way around the Stark tower the most. I'll be getting the mind stone. And you? I can't let you go to who-knows-where to get the soul stone," You let out a humorless laugh, "We don't even know where it might lead you to, or whatever it might take from you."

"I know the soul stone more than everybody. You've heard from Nebula, it's obvious it's to be a sacrifice."

"Then why?" You whined, "It's either you or Clint and I'd rather not have you both thrown off to some sacrifice. You both are important to me. Especially you. You're my best friend!" Ouch, that wasn't how this was supposed to go.

"Well you can aim for another friend."

"Well maybe I don't want you as a friend. Maybe I want you more than that," You blurted, the words had drips of venom but it was more like desperation to keep him safe. To keep him alive with you.

All I ask is...
If this is my last night with you.
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend.
Give me a memory I can use.
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do.

Before you could respond a snarky remark to defend yourself, you felt at bliss when you felt his lips on yours. Unable to smile through it all since you felt this heavy pain on your chest that resembled grief that hadn't even happened yet, "I have a plan," He whispered, mouths still so, so close.

"I don't care what plan you have," You whispered back, "All I want is to have you with me. So, please. Don't. Die."

It matters how this ends.
'Cause what if I never love again? 

"Of course," He nods subtly, his eyes closing once again to feel your lips crash against his once again. You didn't want this to end, wishing to the stars that nothing would end this love.

I don't need your honesty.
It's already in tour eyes.
And I'm sure my eyes they speak for me.

Once you got back to the launchpad, your size growing back to normal. Eyes searching for the man who promised to be back, widening in delight once you saw his face. Clean, with crinkle just beneath his eyes that when you looked down you saw his bright smile. Beside him Clint stood, you felt relief that you lost no-one, "Y/n."

No one knows me like you do.
And since your the only one that matters.
Tell me who do I run to? 

Your name bounced perfectly off of his tongue. Your lip trembled, the scepter being pushed onto Steve for him to carry, "Loki," You ran towards him and let tears of joy run down your cheeks.

"Check out the new couple," Nat cooed with one corner of her lip tugged, "I'm glad you're still here, Clint."

Look, don't get me wrong.
I know there is no tomorrow.
All I ask..
Is if this is my last night with you.
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend.
Give me a memory I can use.

You didn't bother the rest, taking him to your embrace like you hadn't seen him in years. You would be lying if you said you believed he actually had a plan, "I would've killed you again up above if you actually died," You laughed in the crook of his neck.

Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do.
It matters how this ends.

"Well, I would be kissing you first if you actually ended up there with me," He took you into his embrace just as tight, his cheek pressed to the side of your head, "I'll never leave you. Would you promise the same?"

'Cause what if I never love again?

"I promise."

Could this be our lesson in love?
Could this be the way we remember us.

"I told everyone and myself that I won't lose anyone," You whispered to yourself as you saw Strange point a finger up, his gaze burning onto Tony's. You knew what he had to do, there was no way you would let him do it.

So you had only one thing to do. You ran towards Thanos with the most power you could succumb and went for his fist. You could hear Tony and Strange's pleads for you to stop while you were thrown away, "I am inevitable."

"No you're not," You whispered with a tug by the corner of your lip, snapping your fingers as it created a huge ring throughout the battlefield.

I don't wanna be cruel or vicious.
And I ain't asking for forgiveness.

"Y/n.."

You hear the familiar voice as you sat by a tree, you felt your arm give up and as soon enough your whole body, "Loki. Hold my hand."

All I ask..
Is if this is my last night with you.
Hold me like I'm more than just your friend.

"No, I won't," He shook his hand, You're not dying," His voice had a rough scratch through it. It made your chest hurt that it initially was than before.

"Please take my hand."

Give me a memory that I can use.
Take my by the hand while we do what lovers do.

In a sudden tire, he did. Letting tears slip down as he did, "You promised to stay, why break your promise?" He gulped, feeling the need to hide his sobs.

"I'm sorry."

"I love you.."

It matters how this ends.

No response.

'Cause what if I never love again?

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Requested by Anonymous.

Adele, my beloved. 🙇‍♀️🙏

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