— Written Wednesday dec 15th —
I forgot to post my last chapter and now it's been so long that's it's irrelevant ✌️😂
This is gonna be a depressing start to a chapter because Norway's going to hell right now (and I got my period today so I'm extra emotional lmao)
We've always been so privileged because we never had quarantine for very long, and we opened up completely a few weeks or months ago - I mean completely
Of course this happens right before Christmas!! I'm seriously so upset about this, first we get the news last week that Norway's back at yellow level, meaning that our Christmas ball was cancelled (which I've been excited for since June - I was pretty heartbroken)
And then yesterday we get the news that we're at red level
The day before the Spider Man premiere
Literally the only good thing left and it was taken from us :( THE DAY BEFORE THE PREMIERE
I got the news as I was watching the other Spider Man movies with my friends and watching movie recaps so we're all ready for what's probably the most hyped up movie since Endgame
This was gonna be the first time we were gonna see it first, before stupid Americans spoil everything for us
And now the entire world is gonna spoil it because we gotta wait until the end of January, IF the Covid situation gets better
Plus there's a spoiler war going on between Europe and the US since this was gonna be the first time that we saw a big movie before them
IM SO UPSET ABOUT THIS!! I just can't look forward to things anymore because it always gets taken away from me
I felt so bad breaking the news to my friends, we were all so heartbroken
And then I had to come home and comfort my sister since the movie was literally the only thing she's looked forward to for months
I can't express how angry I am about this!! And it's not like the movie theaters are shutting down or anything either, it's Sony being an ass!! It's not even for health reasons because of Covid, they're literally delaying it because they want more money
Am I supposed to just shut off the wifi and not go online until January 21st???? Because there WILL be spoilers and I really don't want it to be spoiled for me :(
OF COURSE THIS HAPPENS RIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS!!!!
I'm also back to half online school :( I have online school on Mondays and Thursdays, we have to stay in our classroom at all times (and our classroom isn't even in the school, it's this shitty tiny building outside with no ventilation and it fucking sucks), we have to sit 1 by 1 and we even have to sit there and eat at our own desks
I hate this so much
My anxiety and stress levels are so high now, it's just been getting worse since my concentration has gotten worse and school has gotten more demanding (resulting in really bad constant headaches literally every day) and I'm burned out
It's a good thing Christmas break is coming up because I'm hanging off the edge for a mental breakdown :( Plus the health system is shit over here so it took me a month to get my stupid doctor's appointment just so they can spend another month trying to send me over to some other place where they can actually give me the documentation and the help that I need
I'm sorry for being a downer but the world seriously sucks ass today (I wrote this yesterday lol)
I'm also in a bad mood because a classmate was an asshole to me (again, this was yesterday)
