TART The Sequel (TART 4)

New School >w<

I was in the city again with my mom today, we left at around 7 a.m. so I could take a look at the school at 11 a.m. :')

It was scary when I first came to the school, but after talking with the department manager (I don't know if that's what it's called lol, I used google translate OwO) and seeing the whole school, I'm excited and determined to go through with it! XD

The class I got into is called "art, design and architecture" and the department manager told me that it was a really big class this year and that there's a waiting list of over 30 students, so I must've had good grades to be able to get in

I'm proud of myself lmao, I beat 30+ other people for a spot in that class! XD And I thought my grades were painfully average lmfao

There's actually not even enough room inside the school for all the classes so my class is the only one who will mainly be in a different building specifically for that class, which kinda sucks when I have to walk back and forth outside in the winter, but at least it's more secluded and less crowded! :D

So we got to try out the busses again and this time I wrote down all the information I need so I can actually maybe navigate around town XD I just wrote down the different stops I'm gonna need, what the bus is called, and what stop to get off on

The first thing we did when we reached the city was take a bus over to my school and check it out, and then we took a bus back to the shopping center by my dorm and looked around there. We bought some food then took a bus over to the other shopping center where we did the rest of our shopping, which was really just a little bit of clothes that we needed

I REALLY HATE MY SIZE SOMETIMES, I can't freaking find anything in the woman's department that actually fits me but it looks so weird if I start buying clothes meant for younger people T_T

I gave up and went over to check the clothes meant for ages 8 - 14 and I had this conversation with my mom:

Mom: you don't use size 14

Me: yeah I do

Mom: no you don't

Me: check my shirt

Mom: *checks the tag on my hoodie* ...

Me: ...

Mom: ...

Me: well what's the size?

Mom: ages 12

IM WEARING A HOODIE MEANT FOR A 12 YEAR OLD GIRL *flips table*

I give up

And then my mom insisted that there was no point in buying clothes in that size because "yOu'rE gOnNa gRow oUt of iT", and I just looked her dead in the eyes and said "do you really think I'm gonna grow? :/"

I've grown half a centimeter these past 5 - 6 years, I think it's safe to say that I've lost my chance 😭

Buying jeans is the absolute worst though because I'll buy them in XS and they still bundle up at the bottom because they're too loNG (hence the leggings I always use, they actually fit me T_T)

Anywho lol, we took a little ice cream break which I'm so happy for because I can't remember the last time I've had ice cream and I needed it today! XD It was really hot today in the city, which was weird because I've been used to really cold and rainy weather all fucking summer long :)))))))) Fuck my town, I can't express my saltiness towards Mother Nature 😤😤😤

Then we just got some food and headed back home XD I also played more Pokémon Go today because that's really fun in the city where you can actually catch Pokémon and where there's actually pokestops and stuff lol

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I don't wanna move a single step away from my house for a while now, I am mentally and physically exhausted, my social boundaries have been pushed to their limits and I'm having an awful people-hangover :)))

This is what I imagined a full-blown hangover feeling like lol

My head was pounding like it was nobody's business, it felt like I was getting a migraine ;; I was so tired, I just immediately collapsed in bed when I came home and napped and it took everything I had to force myself back up again TwT

I'm not built for traveling :( I've been in a car for more than 8 hours altogether these past 3 days and I feel so bleh

I've had to take in so much information and the reality of me moving and going to a new school is kicking in and it's just been so mentally exhausting :'> I also feel bad for my family because I'm having some serious mood swings lmao, literally everything is making me so irritated and frustrated and then I just need to go to my room and try to sleep it off or cry it out 😂

My anxiety levels over the weekend were also pretty high which is why we decided to contact the school so I could check it out, and I'm feeling a million times better now >w<

All the anxiety I've felt over the summer has just really affected me and people who haven't had to deal with this amount of constant anxiety will never understand just how mentally exhausting it can be >_<

I'm feeling much better after checking out the area a few times and seeing the school though, it's just all the uncertainty and doubt that eats away at me so it was good that I got some questions answered and some reassurance! XD

Anywho lol, I'm super exhausted and I haven't slept well all week so imma sleep now, have some memes~

Ignis with his hair down >>>>

Speaking of Ignis, I still have the "Iggy is watching" background on my phone and one of my friends saw it at the last party and asked me about it and I had no idea what to tell her 😂😂

I think I just said something along the lines of "I thought it was funny" lmfao-

Ok goodnight, I hope you guys have a good day/night :>