TART The Sequel (TART 4)

KiT kAtE

Helloooo

I didn't have the energy to write yesterday but I update around every other day anyway so it's fine :>

Amalie came to us during lunch break yesterday to say goodbye 😭😭😭

It's so crazy to think about how she's literally in the US right now

AMALIE, IF YOU'RE READING THIS, YOU BETTER KEEP UPDATING YOUR STORY ON SNAPCHAT!! 🤣

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I actually came on time for math class today lol

That was an embarrassing class XD I kept having to sneeze so I would make a weird noise, everyone would look at me, and then my sneeze would go away so I just ended up making a random noise :(

And then my math teacher wanted us to add him on snapchat so we could just take a picture of an equation and he could help us whenever, so I added him, and I suddenly heard "who's Kit Kate??"

I immediately hid my face and died from embarrassment :))

I FORGOT I CALLED MYSELF KIT KATE ALDHAPXJALDK I WANNA DIEEEEE

The girl next to me just went "I think that's Kaitlin?" and my teacher went "ohh I should've understood that" and everyone was looking at me-

WHY KIT KATE ALXHAPWJX

And then during lunch break, I was with T and as we were about to pass a corner, the guy who was my boyfriend in 8th grade and who asked me out over the summer passed us, and the moment T and I passed the corner she went "AWKWARDDD" and he probably heard it 🤦‍♀️😂

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My sister had a bad day so I baked brownies when I came home from school :>

I'm so angry at her teachers

My sister has a lot of anxiety problems as well, so a lot of things at school is hard for her but the teachers don't do anything to help her

They make all these promises that they don't keep and it's making me so angry, like I'm ready to go over there myself and give the teachers an earful

And this has been going on for YEARS, I can't express how many times Hannah, my mom, and different psychologists have spoken with the teachers about this but THEY STILL DO NOTHING

So my sister goes around on the verge of a panic attack day in and day out, and because of that, she's missed A LOT of days at school

Her anxiety is at the point where she seriously struggles going to school at all, and the teachers still don't listen and I'm so angry about this!!

My sister never cries, she hates crying in front of people and talking about her worries but she's been coming home in tears and having panic attacks in front of me because of this

IM SO ANGRY

Just today, my sister had a really bad stomachache at school and asked if she could go home, but every time she asked the teachers just told her to "tough it out" so she ended up having to stay for several more hours even though she felt like shit - while her friend was allowed to leave right away because of a headache

And it's small things like this that pisses me off so much because if she were to have a panic attack or something at school and asked to go home, "tough it out" is the last thing you want to hear. Sometimes you just reach your limit and you need to go home and calm down, sometimes "toughing it out" only makes things worse

This isn't the first time they've done this either, so going to school is gonna be even scarier for my sister when she knows that the teachers will never let her leave even if it's too much for her - once she's there she's trapped

And in return, she's gonna end up going to school even less because she knows she won't have an escape route

My sister is barely going to school, and when she actually does go, her mind is just filled with anxiety so she's not learning anything

You'd think that when it's affecting her education and ability to learn, they'd try to help, right???

IM SERIOUSLY SO ANGRY, WHY ARE THE TEACHERS SO USELESS

I don't even know how many times we've had to talk with the teachers and they've promised us that they would make changes

But they don't do anything they promise, and because of that, my sister is developing really severe anxiety and it's only gonna get worse if the teachers don't start listening and accommodating for her

What makes her feel even worse is that my teachers always listened to me, they've always understood my anxiety and have been really accommodating, but hers don't listen

You'd think that when it reaches the point that my sister is terrified of going to school and can barely manage to go, they'd start to listen :(

I'm sorry for ranting about this, I'm just really, really angry :< It hurts to watch my sister suffer so much, I've had to live with pretty severe anxiety for as long as I can remember so I know all too well how utterly devastating it is, and I don't want her to feel that way

At least when I was her age, my teachers actually listened to me and they did a lot to make sure I was as calm as possible at school (for example letting all the teachers know about my anxiety and telling them not to call on me in class, letting me be in groups with my friends, letting me leave the classroom if I got to anxious etc)

I hope it'll work out soon :( If not, I swear to god I will march into that school and talk to her teachers myself, and I'm dead serious about that XD

I'm just gonna end with this cursed image

I had to see this, so now you guys do too

Imma go wash my eyes with holy water, I hope you guys have a good day/night and that I didn't cause too much trauma with the image above :)